November 21st,2012
This month has been great and also heart breaking. I don’t know where to begin with my broken heart but it keeps breaking for people.
I visit patients in the hospital nearly every day and one died of TB on Sunday. I continue to picture his eyes wide open in that bed each time I stepped in his room to pray for him.
I think about his family whom I began to get to know and how much they must be hurting yet I cannot comfort them or even contact them.
I think of the children that are here each day climbing the mango tree trying to get as many down as possible so they may fill there hungry tummies, yet I see all the food we have and I cannot give them. Or the children at the wedding that I attended on Sunday and the children hovering over me as I tried to enjoy my lunch, begging for a piece of meat from my plate.
I think about the children catching dragon flies as I am walking them home one day. They were collecting them for dinner for their family that evening. They take off the wings and fry the bodies of the insect as a meal.
Today I got to talk with and pray for a lady who is HIV & AIDS positive and yet so desperately wants to bring hope and a positive future to others who are suffering from the disease. This lady is potentially dying yet was overflowing with the joy of the lord.
I prayed for another women who works at the clinic today who so desperately wants to have a baby but it’s impossible because she is not physically able to have a baby plus the fact that her husband has HIV AIDS and so they use a condom every time they have sex in an effort to not pass the disease to her.
This small country of Swaziland is such a slave to sex and HIV. They give away free condoms at the clinic as an AIDS preventative. They are unaware of so much and desperately need discipleship. The teens need mentors to look up to. They think when they have a boyfriend they are to have sex with him. Many have asked me about my past relationships and why I don’t have a boyfriend now, asking how can I go without sex. This country is so full of AIDS it’s heart breaking to know many children have no choice, they are born with it.
