This sounds ridiculous. I know.
I feel silly just even saying this. . .
I am worried about my passport.
Crazy, right? This is the kind of thing I would never worry about normally. I'm not a big worrier. I usually leave that job up to my sister.
But I can't stop thinking about it.
I mailed it off the other day to get more pages added so I can actually go on the World Race and now I can't stop thinking about it getting lost. Normally I would just be like eh, whatever. If it gets lost I'll just replace it all quick like and be on my way.
But not this time. That's a special passport. It's been with me everywhere. It has all of my fun stamps. It's the one to magically reappear every time I drop it because for some reason I can never keep it in my hand without losing it. Legit. Ask anyone in my family. I usually lose my passport at least once a trip. I forget that I'm holding it and it just falls out of my hand while I'm walking. And with this one, some nice person has always brought it back to me. Always.
So why am I having a hard time letting this go? Why can't I trust God to watch over my passport this time? It's not like I've never sent it off before. It's always been fine. And why can't I trust that He will give me peace if something does happen to it? Do I just need something to focus on and worry about? Why now when worrying has never been my style?
So it seems silly, praying about my passport.
But I know God cares about the small things. I've seen it with my own two eyes. When I'm having a really bad day and just really need that good parking spot to turn it around, if I give it all up to Him, He always provides. How is this any different?
So here I am, re-learning a lesson I've learned many times before. Trying my hardest to trust God with not only the big things, but also the small things.
God, I give it all to you. Everything. From fundraising to my passport. It is all yours. I know you're in control. I know that I can trust you with every aspect of this race and every aspect of my life. Please give me peace while I'm waiting…
