Standing in the middle of an open field I watched frozen with panic as the enormous basin of my life in water form tipped over and came rushing around my ankles and feet past me. Desperately I fell to my knees trying to scoop up the hopes, fears, dreams, and insecurities, into my hands and hold fast to them, but any sane person would know that holding onto water is impossible. In that moment I apparently had lost all ounce of sanity.
Next I was standing alone in an empty room and to my horror I began to see myself being unraveled in long strands of yarn and no matter what I tried to do to keep it from happening the unraveling was unstoppable.
I was not expecting to be unmade in my first few weeks of The World Race. However it is clear that it is necessary. I have to be unmade because if my heart is for the Lord and His glory and His Kingdom I have to be stripped of me and place everything in the only one that is worthy of my trust and following. I have to become HIS workmanship and not my workmanship.
“For we are His workmanship created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared for us beforehand that we should walk in them.” – Ephesians 2:10
I am realizing there are places in my heart and ways of thinking that need healing touch and correction. And I have to ask myself I am willing to press in and allow that pain to overtake me to the point of crying and screaming and begging for relief to the only One who is capable of handling my mess spilled out?
How can I expect to bring hope and peace and joy to others without it being made in me first? My illusion of control and order had become so thick it was like a blanket that comforted me and kept me safe and sound in one place. I have to be unmade. I have to be out of control.
The good news is that I have hope. I serve a God whose grace is more than sufficient for me.
2 Corinthians 12:9 reads, “ But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. “ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weakness so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
Graciously the Lord will guide me in being unmade. Graciously he will unravel the life I have made and will knit me together as to how HE sees fit. For HIS good works. Because I am HIS workmanship, created in Christ Jesus, for the good works God has prepared for me to walk in by His grace in and throughout all of my weaknesses to share with the people of the world who are imperfect and in desperate need of Jesus just like I am.
Finally I am thankful that He will not stop with any of us until he is finished what he has began in me or anyone else, because He is all about finishing what He starts.
“And I am sure of this, that He who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ.” – Philippians 1:6
