In response to the amazing blog post of a fellow racer: http://austinshugart.theworldrace.org/?filename=dear-princess
Dear Man of God,
I am sorry. I am sorry that as I walk around and claim to be a woman of God I am actively searching for you rather than searching for Him. I am sorry that I sit around and think about you constantly and curse Jesus for not sending you to me yet. I’m sorry for only wanting you to nurture me and serve me and make me feel beautiful. I’m sorry for not wanting you so I can serve you and nurture you and make YOU feel beautiful.
I can’t wait to find you for my own selfish reasons. I want so much from you, and don’t consider what you will need from me. I am so ready to reap the benefits of having you around and forget to consider what you will need from me. I’m sorry for often forgetting that our relationship will be two-sided and I will have to give just as much, if not more, than I will take.
I’m sorry that so much pressure is put on you to be so perfect and lead so well. I’m sorry that I am so desperate for love that I chase after your fellow man who shows me attention rather than wait on you who Jesus has for me. I’m sorry that I find the first guy to make me feel special by showing me physical pleasure rather than waiting on you who wants to feed me spiritually instead. I’m sorry for thinking that him showing me physical attention means that he loves me when in reality he only wants me for my body. I’m sorry for letting him have me when I am called to save myself for you.
You see, the fall of man wasn’t only a fall of MAN. We are a fallen people. Both sexes. We fail and we suck and we don’t get the point. So I’m sorry that by the time I finally find you, the one God has for me, I am already damaged and used. But know that I will love you like you can’t imagine, because I have been redeemed by Jesus and He made me just for you. Together we will serve the One who knit us together for one another. I promise to serve you as He has served me. I promise to cherish you as He has cherished me. I promise to appreciate and love and give to you as He has done for me. I won’t be perfect. Oh, I’ll be so far from it. But I promise to constantly seek His face, even when it’s hard, because I’ll know He made you for me. I will continue to pray for you. I can’t wait to meet you.
Sincerely,
Women of God
