Two years ago the Lord started to change my heart. But it didn’t start off pretty.
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There I was again on my knees begging the Lord to take the pain away.
There I was punishing myself for doing it to myself not once but twice.
I lost myself, again.
In man
I became too emotionally involved and obsessive.
I was sure that he was going to save me,
and give me the life that I dreamed of as a little girl.
You know, the wrap around porch with the white picket fence.
I was for sure he was in my future. We had talked about it. I even picked out my wedding dress on Pinterest.
There I was on my knees. Again, in desperate need for the Lord’s help.
I never talked to the Lord unless I needed something.
Now I was spending every second with Him in hopes that He would change my circumstances.
And He did. But not how I expected.
I turned to Him for all of the wrong reasons but God turned even my selfish relationship with Him into something beautiful.
I was reading my Bible, trying to find something that might mean something to me when I came across this.
“Call to me and I will answer you, and will tell you great and hidden things that you have not known.”
Jeremiah 33:3
At first this verse didn’t mean a whole lot to me. But I kept reading it for comfort and the more I reached out to God the more this verse meant to me.
As I continued to seek the Lord that year He kept His promises. He has definitely answered prayers and changed my life.
He has changed me from the inside out, as he continues to do today.
I lost myself in man.
Then, found myself in Him.
The great “I AM”
My heavenly father.
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“Thank you, Lord for wrecking “my” world and showing me that your will is so much better. You always keep your promises and you love me so much. You have shown me true love. You have continued to romance me and show me things I never could imagine. But most importantly you’ve shown me that a true relationship with you comes from a change of heart. Something that doesn’t always happen overnight but that happens from seeking you. And listening to what you have to say. Like Jeremiah. Who loved you so much and knew that you were more than church on Sundays, and prayer before meals. You’re much more than that. And I’m so thankful for that. Thanks for changing my life. I love you.”
