So I was reading a book “Don’t Waste Your Life� by John Piper. Just in the first two pages God was already putting the question in my face — I’ve I wasted it.
So we just enter month 8 of the race, it’s hard to believe. When that phase or question was brought to my attention, I started to think and reflect on the past 7 months and look at the future. What does- I’ve I wasted it look like for me. Here are some questions that came to mind.
Have I spent the most time with God that I can?
Is there one thing I wish I could go back and do again?
What am I going to take out of these past 7 months?
Have I been all/ 100% in to every month?
Am I going to let homesickness get in my way of all possibilities?
Am I going to let a rash take over my body and thoughts?
Am I going to let the past consume me or am I going to look towards the future God has for me?
The main question is have I wasted it? I do know that there are times I am unsure of things, I am feeling down about myself or something, and even times I have thoughts of home more than I should. As I sit here thinking about the decisions and thoughts in my growth with God, I know that I want to make the best out of every minute I have with God. One day while we were in South Africa, God gave me the word “Hand.� I went to the Bible and started to read scripture about the word “Hand.� This verse stuck out to me the most then and did today when I was re-reading some of the verses.
“If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the fear far side of the sea, even there Your hand will guide me, Your right hand will hold me fast.� Psalm 139:9-10
After reading that verse today, I realized that we are sometimes going to step away further than God wants us to or we need to: But God’s right hand is there reaching out to us. He wants us to have that relationship with Him, He desires for that relationship with us. He gives us challenges in life to see which way we choose and the way we handle the situation. The question he wants us to answer is: are we going to choose Him for guidance and step out in faith or are we going to try to deal with it ourselves in our own way?
I started to think if I seek God’s advice, comfort, guidance, and clarity for different situations, I don’t think I have wasted it. I am following His direction for me, yes I have got down on myself and thought about home more than I should the last month: But deep down I know where I am supposed to be that is on this journey with God. There are times I question “Why,� but I will later find out the answer, when God thinks I am ready. One thing I have realize is that we can go through all types of relationship with people, they might hurt you or disappoint you, but God is always there with His hands wide open with comfort and strength. One thing I have had to learn the last month with my rash and now that it is back, is to be patience and do what needs to be done for my rash. He wants me to seek for guidance, when I have no desire, to ask for comfort, to rely on the number one Healer, God. To know that He is healing me, the way I need to be healed. He is making sure I stay on the path with Him and to seek Him in all things. He is the eternal encourager.
So I come back to the question, “I’ve I wasted it.� I do think there are things I could have done different, but all in all I am following God’s desires for me. I have to be patience about the future He has for me, and live in what He has for me now, that is to go serve the Nations and to grow stronger in faith with Him.
My question to you is -Are you wasting it?
Until Next Time… take care and God Bless
