I miss my squad. Which is dumb because I HAVE a squad. A new squad. An amazing squad.
Once in a while I am reminded of the life I would’ve been living if I had launched in January. And I miss it.
During training camp last October, someone said something to the effect of “you’ve only known them 10 days”- in an attempt to give us some perspective… In my head, that makes complete sense… I really only was with them in person for 10 days… but, in my heart….. I miss them, and the picture of what my race was going to be.
After I, more or less, missed the boat last January, they (the WR staff) talked to me about “grieving” the loss of the relationships. Which I did… more or less.
And I see why I stayed- there are a hundred little details that have worked together in the last 4 months that wouldn’t have had the chance to be if I had left in January.
I am not the same person that I would’ve been…
My relationship with Christ isn’t the same…
I have relationships in my life now that I would’ve never had…
I guess it’s just that, training camp was when the Race began to feel real. Those people I would be living life with were real people!- not just the pictures of people I chatted with online.
I miss that- the “realness.”
I know in August when I head to training camp again, I will begin to build relationships and the weight and excitement of what is to come will hit me like a freight train…
It is good that I waited, I know this now. I am glad that I waited. I just wish “waiting” didn’t require loss.
But, out of that loss, comes the potential for (and expectation of) something absolutely amazing. I have so much to learn from my new squad, I am honored to be a part of this group.
God is good. His plan is perfect. I pray, every day, that I will continue to follow as He leads, looking only to Him- and that my life will glorify Him, on and off the Race.
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Thanks to my amazing supporters, I am about 70% funded!!
My goal is to be fully funded by the time I leave the country in October- if you would like to partner with me and be a part of what God is doing through the World Race, you can do so here.
Thank you!! God bless.
