A huge part of my personality is my independence; I want to be self-sufficient, able to rely on my own strength to get things done.
It’s not glory I seek; I do not desire to show the world what I have accomplished on my own…
I just don’t want to be a burden. I live my life trying to, at all times, carry my own weight. It’s my desire to support others, listen to their problems, pray with them, give advice, and help come up with solutions- I never want my problems to weigh others down.
I am honored so many people have come alongside me and supported me by supporting my World Race. I know I cannot do this without you guys…
And that fact, that I cannot do this alone, has been slowly wearing on me for over a year. The fact that yes, God has called me to this, but I cannot provide the means to accomplish it on my own is crazy humbling.
Perhaps it’s a problem with my perspective. In my mind, this burden I have taken on, this $16,561 that I have to raise to support myself, is my responsibility. The World Race is something I signed up to do- I should be the one to pay for it.
People half-joke with me about this “vacation” I am taking- 11 months to travel the world… and that wears on me. Yes, I will be experiencing some amazing places, and I am thrilled to be able to travel…But I will also be experiencing some of the greatest heartbreak of my life, some of the most spiritually dark places in the world, and some of the greatest need I would have otherwise never have known existed.
I signed up for the World Race, first and foremost, not so I can travel, but out of obedience to a specific call God placed on my life.
Secondly, I desired a cross-cultural global perspective of what God is doing around the world and to do my small part of reaching “every nation” (Matthew 28:19) and “every tribe and tongue” (Revelation 7:9-10).
I wish I had the means to cover the cost myself, but that isn’t how God has chosen to send me. He has chosen, like He usually does, to use His people, His Church to accomplish something amazing. He is not sending me on the World Race to impact my life alone- He is using my story to reach so many more than I could’ve expected.
So I keep fundraising. I continue to share stories of how God is accomplishing something so much greater than me, despite my inadequacies, because, contrary to my nature, God is involving as many people as possible- so His glory will be on full display.
I continue, daily, to be humbled by and grow from this experience.
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To those who have been with me from the beginning (over a year ago!)- I thank you all for walking with me. I do not take your support for granted.
To all my new friends and supporters- thank you for joining me! I know the best is yet to come.
I am 4 months away from launching and about $4,000 away from being fully funded. If God is calling you to step out in faith, there are many ways for you to partner with me: You can subscribe to this blog for updates, donate towards the cost of sending me, and, most importantly, pray for me as I prepare to go.
Thank you, friends.
Blessings!
