Hey guys! A lot of you are probably wondering about the title, so let me explain and break it down..
8 months ago I stood at an alter crying out to God for direction. I cried to him, demanding answers that I had hoped would lead me to success. Little did I realize then, sometimes God is very quiet. Not because he has left, but because he wants us to embrace in the journey of the unknown. He wants us not to only pray in our desperation for him to fix our circumstance, but to rest in his presence and know he is a good good father, a father that has a plan and will for our lives.
6 months ago God asked me to do the unthinkable. Again, standing at an alter, I’ve never heard God’s voice more clearly asking me to give everything I had fundraised at this point to another missionary and he would blow my mind. Devastated, I replied, “God, that wasn’t your voice, it couldn’t have been.” You see, I told God no. I told God no out of selfishness, out of self-pity. 2 days later I decided I would act on my own and go ahead and put all my fundraised money into my World Race account, making it immovable from this point on. It wasn’t a big shock to find my debit card transaction rejected my card 3 times (lol). Realizing my mistake, I took the step of faith and obedience giving the money I was told to give to this precious person. Handing her the money, she looked at me and said, “You don’t understand, I’ve been praying and crying out to God for this exact amount, since my deadline is next week.” God has a funny way of pulling us back, even when I want to be like Jonah and run as fast as I can in the opposite direction.
2 weeks ago I felt God tugging at my heart with the word “timing.” Again, out of stubbornness, I pushed that unfathomable word as far back in my mind as possible. I put a smile on my face, letting everyone think fundraising was going great, but God has had different plans all along. The truth is, we can make our own plans, but God knows our destination. I continued to pray, pleaing to God to allow the World Race to be my destination. That night at church, the entire sermon was on God’s perfect timing. Although you would think that was my conformation that the World Race was not in God’s perfect timing for my life right now, I continued to pray and plea. Little did I know my mom had called Lee University several days earlier, receiving the news I could receive all my tuition for free if I would just come. As my mom told me this, I completely shut down. I didn’t want to hear of any plans other than the World Race. I laugh now, realizing how God HAS blown my mind. This entire time, I’ve been believing God was going to blow my mind, by providing the needed $14,000 for the World Race, I would never have even dreamed he would be fulfilling that promise through $14,000 of tuition money, making it a possibility for me to be able to attend a private university for little cost.
1 week ago God brought me to my knees. I was sitting in a Sunday morning service, all the while being distracted by that heavy word God had been relentlessly placing on my heart, timing. It just so happened that this service was on God’s timing as well. By this point, God had my attention completely. I was clinging to the guest speaker’s every word. He turned to the section I was sitting in and said, “I just really feel like God is drawing me to this section.” I couldn’t help but feel like I was the only one in the room, God he’s speaking to me. After service, I grabbed ahold of the speaker, introducing myself and sharing my heart with him. He blankly stared at me for a minute, then saying,” Young lady, I know we have just meet, but I know God has given me a prophetic word for you. God told me you ARE going to go to Lee University this fall and you WILL do missions, but God wants you to embrace in the journey and trust in his precious timing first.” With tears pouring down my face, I couldn’t help but realize God had been trying to bring me to this word all along and fully grasp his purpose behind it, his perfect timing.
So what exactly am I doing now you ask?
As of now, I will be attending Lee University, majoring in Intercultural Studies. With the money I have raised up to this point, I will be going to Swaziland and Haiti this summer to work with local orphanages and organizations in the local communities planted there, so please continue to keep me and my team in your prayers! Thank you to everyone who has supported me in any way they can, I cannot thank you enough. My team is so incredibly amazing and on fire for Jesus, so please be sure to check out and subscribe to their pages, they’re going to do some awesome things for Jesus! If you would like to support my Swaziland/Haiti trips this summer, I have a financial goal of about $2,000 left to fundraise to make these trips possible. You’re financial and spiritual support is such an incredible blessing!
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