Lets face it, I have some huge anxieties about The World Race. I recently read a blog by a current Racer called "If I could have a World Race do-over. It was so inspiring to me. I feel that this Racer, Leah Malone, may just be a bit like me. She talks about how she wouldn't pack quite as much, I over pack way too often. How she would do things different with her fellow Racers; such as, be more outgoing at first, and not hide feelings and share personal belongings,she would be more apt to let the Holy Spirit move her in unknown ways and unknown places, and be thankful for her days each day, not in hind-sight. So here's my list; heres my list of If I Don't Do The World Race:
If I don't do The World Race
I may never get to achieve my dream of traveling around the world
I may never get to eat monkey (I may never anyway, but so much more possible to in Africa than USA)
I may never get to hold an orphan baby and sing God's love over him/her
I may never achieve the ability to rely fully on God and those He has put around me; I know I'm way to independant.
I may never feel as though I have a purpose (more on that later, not quite ready for that post)
I may never know what it is like to follow Christ, even when I don't see the road paved for me.
I may never get over my OCD of cleanliness.
I may never learn the art of having just enough.
I may never learn that I don't always have to keep plans so structured.
There are so many other things that I may never know or get to do if I don't do The World Race, but the one that drives me the most is that if I don't do the World Race, I'm not following what God has called me to, and if I choose not to follow His calling, then why call Him my Savior.
So many times I find it hard to die to myself, but He, so freely, gave His life for me. How does that happen? I would give up my life for my family and friends, but at times I find it hard to give things up for my Savior!?! I have stated that my journey began when I moved back with my parents, but really it started when I made the decision to apply to The World Race. When I applied my thoughts were "of course I can sell my belongings" and that is exactly what we are called to do; Matthew 19.21 "If you want to be perfect, go, sell your possessions and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me."
Father, My Maker, I give up my life as I know it. Make me, mold me, have Your way in my life that I may never desire anything but Your will for my life. Take away my anxieties as you have commanded me; "Be strong and courageous, do not be afraid" I know, Jesus, that you are with me and will never leave nor forsake me and for that I am eternally grateful!
Leah Malone's post: http://updates.theworldrace.org/?filename=if-i-could-have-a-world-race-doover
