Many people have asked me where I'm at with funds and wondering if I'm leaving in July since I'm not fully funded yet and I'm leaving in 3 months. People may think I'm crazy for considering to leave America without being flly funded and think I should just wait until a later time to be fully funded by the time I launch. There may not be a later time. So why not NOW? God has called me to. But really I feel that for me that's just not trusting God that he will provide the money in the time he has given me. I feel God calling me to the July route, so why wouldn't he provide? Why should I let the fear of money stop me? It's NOT! I'm departing in July and just walking by faith that the money will come in at the perfect timing.
We may go through our everyday life trusting God with finances for bills, gas money, car payment, school, etc and providing a job to pay those bills RIGHT? He does the same with the missionary field it's just different. He brings people to support who feel led whether it's through prayer or financial support. People who I never expected to give financially have given outrageous donations. It's always encouraging and I'm so thankful for it. I can't even express it into words. Just blown away! Trusting that he will provide the funds that I need but in HIS timing, not MINE. My timing has no importance. Whenever I have doubt that God will provide, God definitely shows me otherwise. He brings someone around to support me. It shows that it's His journey and not mine. It's all about Him not me. I am relying on God to come through for the amount I need to be fully funded, I know he will in the perfect timing. If I do everything according to what I want, according to the fears I may have, according to little things like money that pull me away from the calling. I'm not glorifying God, and I'm not obeying HIM. I'm just getting caught into what the enemy thinks and tries to steer me away from God. Steering me away from going out into all nations so speak truth into nations, share Christ's love to many.
I've gotten an overwhelming fear about World race lately, I know that it's just satan attempting to get in the way of God's plan. But sometimes it's just overwhelmingly exhausting to show that I am strong enough for this journey or really knowing that I am even strong enough? Sometimes I feel SO weak. When I feel satan attacking I just feel like falling to the ground. Sometimes when it gets really bad I just really want to run away from all the difficulties in life. But I know in my heart that is not what I'm supposed to do. I guess alot of the time it's hard to face it. and really lay down what I know is right and believe. But I know that God is my strength when I am weak.
And then a friend posted this on my facebook wall and wrote some encouraging words to me…
Unafraid- Joy Williams
They say I'm too young to really understand
They say I'm too old to be where I am
They say just fit in, you'll be just fine
But I can't buy the lie
The voices of the crowd always try to keep me down
But I've had enough and now I'm stepping out
Unafraid
‘Cause I know who You are
Unafraid
Staring life in the face
‘Cause I know who I am is who You made
So here I stand
Unafraid
You say I'm Your own, an orphan found
You say I am home, those lies are lonely now
You're proud of me, and I am safe
And my fears begin to fade
Your voice is drowning everybody out
I'm gonna live my life (unashamed)
Living my life (untamed)
For the sake of Your Name
I'm living my life, I'm living my life
I am doing what i feel like I need to do at this moment in my life, I shouldn't let money, friends, fear, letting go, leaving my comfortable life stop me from doing what God has called me to do. I'm not here to do what people think I should do instead of what God wants me to do, We are here to follow HIM. For this season in my life that is not going to college. There's nothing wrong with that. God's plan for everyone is so different, unique, and beautiful. I do not want to live on this earth to live the "comfortable life" I want to strive everyday to be more like Christ.
|| Love God || Love his people || Change the world ||
Mis-sion-ary {noun} Someone who leaves their family for a short time, so that others may be with their families for ETERNITY.
If you would like to donate to this journey go to my blog lauraquam.theworldrace.org to the left hand side where it says "support me" You can either be a monthly support donor or a one time donation. Partner with me in this journey. Please continue to pray for me as I prepare for training camp in May and launching in July.
Thank you all, Laura
Happy Easter! I hope you all had a beautiful day. Remembering what today really means,
