Thinking about the departure date for world race has just gotten a whole lot more difficult for me.
Thinking about all the "goodbyes"that will be said, all the "I love you" that will be said, all the "I miss you" that will be said. Leaving doesn't ever get any easier. But did God ever say that life would be easy? No!
The more I think about it the more I get emotional about it
I have no idea what to expect on the world race, I have no idea of what's to come.
I could get really sick, I could get insured, something could seriously happen to me while I'm on the field. I can't even list everything
I'm not afraid of anything, I'm not afraid of getting seriously sick, I'm not afraid of spending time in foreign hospitals, I'm not afraid of dying, I'm not afraid of anything that may happen to me while I'm on the world race but not just during world race but at anytime I think I'm more afraid of not being able to show the people that I love so dearly of how much they have impacted my life, of how much I love them. And it's honestly been something on my heart. Something that I think about on a daily basis. But it shouldn't be my mindset of what will I do to show my friends and family how much they mean to me before World race. It should "how can I show them today?" Because I don't know what's to come tomorrow. So don't wait until tomorrow to tell someone you love them because tomorrow may never come.
You may be asking "what's up with this hard topic?" We'll it's only February and I've heard many people getting sick with cancer, Such incredible people passing away so suddenly or not so suddenly. And it really hurts me that I didn't get a chance to tell them how much they really impacted my life. Through the struggles and hardships it has opened my eyes that I need to tell my loved ones how much I do love them and not wait for tomorrow. Because tomorrow may never come.
This has really been on my mind for quite some time now. And just thinking about how I'm going to show my friends how much you guys really do mean to me.
So many things that people may be afraid of with my preparation for world race with my health and safety. But I strongly believe that this is exactly what I'm supposed to do with this coming year. But really I could get diagnosed with cancer, I could get in an unexpected accident here in America, something could happen to me here.
So why should I have this thought of "what if you get sick on the world race?" "What if you aren't healthy enough?"
But really I'd rather get sick doing some thing that I feel like I'm called to do then just wait around in American waiting for that sickness to come. Anything can happen anywhere but God can use that to impact the lives you surround yourself with. God could very much allow me to get sick on world race but am I afraid? No! Because God has allowed me to get Malaria and he healed me from that and made it a beautiful experience.
