The other day I wanted to see Taken 2 and my mom questioned me about that. She asked me "if I'm okay watching since I'll be traveling in a few months?" Honestly the question should be "is she okay with watching with it?" For a long while I WAS really worried about going and actually thinking about the movie "Taken" Worried and thinking of the worst thing that could happen to me overseas and there was a split second that I really didn''t even want to go at all because I was freaked out. I didn't want anything to happen to me. I just wanted to stay home because it would be more comfortable and safe for me. But that thought literally lasted a little bit, the exact things could happen right at home, in Elk Grove, In California, In the US. It really doesn't matter where you are at. And if I'm thinking "What if something happened?"Then i'm not exactly putting my whole faith into that God will protect me. Now, I feel as if my friends and family are terrified and thinking twice about letting me go. But God is letting me go, He has called me to go. It's hard for myself to say the words "Yeah I'll be fine nothing will happen." Just so I could possibly give them peace about everything. But I'm in no place to say those words. God is the only one who knows what's to come.
We all need to be aware that the things that may possibly could happen around the world. It can honestly happen the very same here. We can't be scared. God is much more powerful and he is our strength. It's the enemy telling us lies, But we have to know that God is bigger than that.
Praying and trusting in God.
I know I am called to this journey.
No matter what happens on this journey God is still worthy of our praise. We can't praise him any less if something happens that doesn't go along with our plan. It's not our plan that is important. It's the plan that God has set for our life. But now I'm not scared at all, I was meant to go on this.
Even through the difficult times that I may face I'm not going to let a little fear from the enemy to let me stop from doing God's will. My heart and desire to make deciples of all nations is so much bigger.
We just need to follow God every step of the way. Every second of every day.
I have no doubt on the race there's going to be days that I just want to go home. To spend the holidays with family and friends, to rest peacefully and just missing everyone so much.
My prayer is that I will have the strength to get through each day and that I will be filled more everyday with his love, joy, peace, compassion.
Romans 5:1 <3
