I have been an emotional wreck this past week. Hearing about tragic accidents with deaths involved. Just saddens my heart. It hurts me whether I know the person or not. It brings tears to my eyes just thinking about it.
When I think about all the car accidents,
When I think about cancer,
when I think about those people who pass away from malaria,
when I think about sex trafficking in the world,
and all that happens in the world all the good and all the bad.
God is still worthy of our praise. Through trials God will make us stronger.
This week has been the hardest. Today hearing news about a man of God the wonderful Ken Duffy who passed away today. He was wonderful and such a Godly man. A man who always had a smile on his face. A man who encourages, a man who put God first and others second, who had a huge heart for people, who was so involved in youth ministry. Even though I really didn't know him very well he was a man that I really looked up to and inspired me to grow in my relationship with God. I'm so blessed that I met him even if it wasn't a strong friendship. Anyone could meet him once and he could impact their life even if Ken never saw them after that. That is how I want God to use me. Ken Duffy will be greatly missed. He is loved my so many here on earth. Ken Duffy is now in heaven and he is with his Heavenly Father now. You didn't really have to know Ken well to really know him. He lived for Christ and through his actions you could see how much he lived Christ. That's how I want to live until I am sent home.
Down here on earth is only my temporary home.
Last night I had a dream about the many friends of mine who have died. Just thinking about it makes me sad but I'm rejoicing because they are in a much better place now. It hurts at times thinking about all the great times we had. I had a dream about brashawn he was my neighbor since I was a little child. All the neighbor kids would come out to play after school hours to play dodgeball, basketball, football anything. Dodgeball was brashawn favorite. While we were neighbors he was not following Christ but he moved away and lost connection with him. But the day before he died I randomly saw him at a park. I got to chat with him for a bit, I felt like he was a completely different person. After reading notes from people to him after he died. I knew he had changed, he had Christ in his life. I'm rejoicing that he is now in heaven now. It's been a few years but its still really hard for me at times.
I also had a dream about Trisha Watson she was my babysitter and she was in a tragic accident. When I was little I always thought she was so beautiful and that I wanted to beautiful when I got older. She was loved by many. When I was little I never got to tell her things that I would have liked. She always had a smile on her face. She was caring toward others. I miss her.
Something to think about: What do you want to be remembered as?
A reminder for me that I never know when I will go home to be with Jesus. So everyday from now on I need to tell people how much I love them. And grow deeply more in love with God everyday. To not be passive. To be the woman that God has created me to be. I want to spend my days to grow closer to God, to love others, to make an impact in this world, to be remembered until I am sent home. To encourage others.
Even though we are left behind and missing the people who have passed away. We can rejoice in where they are at now. God isn't finished with us yet here. Our time will come in Gods timing and we can be reunited with all of our loved ones
