God thinks I'm beautiful.
In preparation for World Race I will be letting go of so many things while I'm away.
I will be letting go of being comfortable
I will be letting go of a life that is so familiar for me
I will be letting go to american food
I will be going a bed to sleep on
I will be letting go of constant internet access
I will be letting go of smelling nice
I will be letting go of a closet to store my clothes
I will be letting go of family and friends
I will be letting go of being clean and having clean clothes
I will be letting go of a shower
I will be letting go of expectations
the list goes on…
For a long time I always wanted to grow my hair out super duper long, and feeling so attached to my hair. And felt like it needed to look perfect all the time and spent so much time doing it But recently I felt like God was telling me to let the hair go and cut it off. I was hestitate at first.
Worried what people would think of me? How they would react to it? Would they hate or love it?
The hestitation was because I wasn't sure how it would look, But the more I went to God for this. he gave me a peace about it and felt like it needed to happen. The more I went to God about it, Satan tried to tell me otherwise. Told me lies. Satan will try to do whatever he can to discorage us or to go against of what God is telling us to do.
But then I thought to myself it really doesn't matter what people think of my air, as long as I'm obeying God in anyting and everyting I do. It will be te best. God knows me and he created me beautiful no matter what people say to me.
I am looking at myself the way God sees me. That really was a struggle for me throughout my life. But I now know that I am BEAUTIFUL in God's eyes.
Througout my life I compared myself to other girls alot. Feeling like I wasn't beautiful. Wishing I was as gorgeous like those girls. Or have beautiful long curly hair. God has really been speaking to me about that topic.
And I'll be completely honest with you on this, I have never felt so beautiful. God remindes me everyday, it's not what's on the outside that matters but what is on the inside.
It brings joy to my heart knowing that God thinks of me as "His beautiful daughter"
Some people may think asking God about cutting hair is silly, But for me it was an incredible and beautiful thing to do. It may be little but it has definitely shown me that looks aren't everything. As long as I do wat God as told me to do, I will feel much better about it not for how it looks, But the feeling that I have inside me that even through cutting hair God can change me, make me new, Open my eyes and make me feel beautiful more than ever. God can make little experiences into big adventures.
It is a beautiful experience. I really can't explain how I'm feeling rigt now. I'm so joyful, it's unbelievable.
Thank you God for sowing me how important the little things are.
This is the new Laura Quam.
