Lately I've been really struggling with World race funds and preparations for it because I haven't been able to fully focus on fundraising for the past month because of getting sick and then ending up having Malaria. So I feel like I'm so behind on everything. I feel like everyone is reaching their goals and have been fundraising and been focusing on that for awhile. And I'm the only one who has a big majority of the funds to still raise in a short time because of the delay on planning fundraisers and getting the word out July will be here before I know it. I'm trying to not let time discourage me or stress me out. Sometimes there's some days that I really stress about it that I'm not where I wish I was at at this moment.
My funding isn't where I would like to be right now, it's going alot slower than what I epected or hoped for.
While all my squadmates are seeing God provide in ways that seem impossible, And reach their second deadlines they are seeing a breakthrough. And all I'm seeing is the exact same amount of money in my account and feeling like a failure on my part. Some days I do look at my WR account and I see the amount of money go up and that lifts me spirits and shows me that God will provide for all my needs.
I'm terrified that I won't reach my deadlines, that I will be left behind until the September route, Being left in America, that I will have to leave my amazing squad. I'm scared that God won't breakthrough this struggle of fundraising, I'm scared that I won't be prepared by July to launch for World race, Not being ready for training camp.
Maybe I'm not worth it.
Sometimes I think to myself can I really raise all the money that I need to do this, Will I reach my deadlines? Where will all the support come from? I can't do it on my own. I need your help. If you feel called to donate please do it. Donate through lauraquam.theworldrace.org
Through this struggle I keep hearing in my head:
Patience, Patience, You need to have patience
I will come through. Wait on me and trust me.
I need to give EVERYTHING to God
Give Him the trials, worries, struggles, and the praises.
Giving everything to God is the best place to be in.
He wants to know what's on my heart and what's on my mind.
He desires His children to come to Him, His arms are wide open.
and he will take care of the rest. He is in control of my future. He will provide.
God is there to provide people to send me, to provide for me, to heal me, to prepare my heart.
Praying that I will have patience in this timing of just resting from having Malaria until I have the strength to get back in the swing of fundraising mode.
God has showed me how much I need to rely on Him for everything and that I can't do any of this without Him. That he needs to be the center of this all. And everything will go well with God.
“These things I have spoken to you, so that in Me you may have peace. In the world you have tribulation, but take courage; I have overcome the world.” John 16:33
