Lately I've been thinking more and more about being single. Actually so thankful that I am single. Preparing to go on the World race would make it so much more difficult to leave. For me, I feel like it could have tied me down to stay here. God knew that I would be going on the World race there's a reason I'm not in a relationship now. So many people are getting
Recently I've been so content with being single more than ever before. The thought of possibly being single my entire life doesn't really bother me or scare me in any way, if it's God's plan then it WILL be beautiful.
Marriage isn't meant for everyone, If I'm one of those ladies who don't get married then I hope and pray that God could use me in big ways in my life.
I'm not going to stop my desire and heart that God has given me for missions and wait for days, months, or years until that guy who may or may not come into my life and see where God leads us together. I don't want to waste time. But my heart is so focused on missions at the moment. God will do whatever he has planned while I'm doing something that I feel called to do. I don't need to stop what I'm doing, stop the passion inside my heart, stop everything. Hold off. Basically put a pause on my life until I find that one guy who will sweep me off my feet. But honestly that's not who I am or want to be, I want to go after what God has put on my heart and that would be missions. Along that journey of living life he could easily put someone in my life who would be right for me, but until then I will guard my heart with friendships. I'm going to continue this beautiful life that God has called me to have without any distractions. I believe God can use singleness for beautiful things and to glorify him. But for real I'm only 20, I don't need to be in a relationship. Being single I am free and not tied down to anything.
…my dad may never walk me down the aisle,
…I may not plan the little details for my wedding,
…I may not have my first dance with my husband,
…I may not have my own kids,
A desire I had in my highschool years to have someone who loves to travel with and see God's beautiful creation together, but in a way I am it's just different from what I was thinking of years ago. I'm doing the world race but with God on my side through the entire journey, I am in a relationship with Him and that is exactly where I want to be and only that. In reality, I'm not saying that I won't ever get married because I am in no place to say that, At this very moment, I don't want to be in a relationship, I want to strive to be closer to God, to do anything and everything God has called me to do. To know who I am. Searching for a guy isn't my proiority and I don't want it to ever be my priority to do that. I want to live life to the fullest. The incredible thing is God already has that guy in mind for me or just be single, so there's no need to just search and see what could happen. Might be heartbreak in the end if I just settle for anything and not really know what I want.
It's better to just let God control it.
I will take this time to grow.
To know myself more.
And not feel like I need someone special to make me feel loved.
God may have that guy out there somewhere for me. I'm totally content with anything that God has planned for my life. God will use me in my singleness and God could do great things through it. I can still adopt which has been on my heart for so long. And I really feel like God has put it on my heart to do that.
I don't want to go searching for that one guy that I may think is perfect for me. I don't want to waste my time on relationships and be distracted from what God has for me and the life that he has planned for me. Whether he has a plan for me to get married or not, It's his plan for my life. And I'd rather him plan my life more so I plan my own life plans.
As long as I follow his direction along the way everything will happen when it happens in God's timing.
