Ever have one of those days/weeks/months/years/decades where you are going nonstop for so long you don't know how to do nothing? And you've convinced yourself that you ALWAYS have to be doing something. 'Doing nothing is a waste of time,' you would say. What happens when that is all you have ever known and all of a sudden you're told there is nothing you can do? You are rendered powerless in getting what it is you know God wants for you.
Since coming back from training camp, I have been struggling with figuring out what to do in order to raise the funds I need, tie up loose ends of work/college/family/friends before I leave, preparing my own heart for this journey, and still go about life on a day-to-day basis. The answer? DO NOTHING. A squadmate of mine spoke this truth into me at training camp. She told me that sometimes there is nothing you can do and you just have to sit and be with Jesus and trust that He will take care of everything. And this theme of not being in control and not being able to do it on my own has been recurring throughout these past few weeks. At church, during my prayer time….. I am so overwhelmed by everything I have to do before I leave for Launch on September 4th that God has to keep reminding me, and keep teaching me that I am not in control. You aren't in control either. Proverbs 16:9 says "In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps." I had made plans on how to raise the finances I need for this next year. But God keeps telling me He's got this. His ways are not mine and His thoughts are far above my own (Isaiah 55:8-9). What seems unfathomable to meis just a walk in the park for Him. I mean, after all, He is God. He created the universe, He conquered giants, He walked through fire, He calmed a storm, He split the sea … I think my God can handle raising a few thousand dollars!
