These days I am simply amazed at the goodness of God…I don’t feel worthy to even really write about it but that’s the thing…God says I AM worthy. So, I'll just take it in. I breathe in the breath of God that has brought me from a place of terrifying darkness and has brought me into light that I know I can never be apart from. His goodness is overwhelming my soul as I write this. I look around and I see all the people that God provided for in order to be here and I can barely breathe as I am reminded of how the longings of their hearts are also being fulfilled. Looking back at my life, I can see countless ways that God has been involved…guiding me, protecting me, speaking wisdom and life in me through other people, divine circumstances that are so divine that I have not the words to even relay them to you in their fullness…
The fact that I am here in Harbin, CHINA brings me to my knees. I am so grateful. There were so many moments that I thought it would never be possible to return to the nations! I had no money in my pocket when I signed up for this and yet here my feet stand in China. The fact that God would pour out this goodness on me when several years ago I wanted to end my life, baffles me. It makes me want to fling myself further into the arms of the One who proves His love for me with every passing second.
I remember back to a time when I was 7 years old and I got on the wrong bus after school. The bus was supposed to drop me off at our new after school daycare program but instead mistakenly dropped me off at the old location. When she dropped me off the building was empty, locked, with no cars in the parking lot, and no one got off the bus with me. I was stranded and scared with nowhere to go. I had just moved to Ohio and had no idea where my house was and I had no way to call my parents. Eventually, an older gentleman pulled up and asked me if I was lost. I knew I wasn’t supposed to talk to strangers or go with them anywhere but I didn’t know what else to do. I told him everything and got in the car with him. He told me he would take me to his sister’s house where I could call my dad. I was shocked to find that his sister just happened to live 2 doors down from my new house! I called my dad and when he arrived, I ran into his arms, both of us so relieved to be together again.
I feel like that situation is just another example of the favor and sovereignty that God has poured out on my life. I speak of these things not to boast but to share that the same God that pours this favor out on me and has since before time, is the same God that pours goodness and favor on you. Do you see it? Can you look back in your life and see how God has been there? How He has covered and shielded you? How in times you’ve run astray, sometimes to incredible detriment that goodness has tried to work its way in again, even if you have decided to run from it? If you can’t see it, ask Him to show you. If you want to experience favor, ask for it. He is faithful. He is so extremely faithful.
Love you all. Thanks for reading.
"FOR WHOEVER FINDS ME FINDS LIFE AND OBTAINS FAVOR FROM THE LORD"
Proverbs 8:35
