Six months ago, I promised to update you guys about my love affair with/in Malaysia. And I haven’t done that since. Instead, I fell off the face of the Earth for the last five months of the Race. And for that, I am deeply sorry. But if you guys are willing to stick around for a little while longer, I would love to update you on what the Lord has been doing in my heart and in the nations since then and what He is currently doing now that I have returned back to the States.
Sooooooo….yeah.
In Malaysia, I came alive.
In Malaysia, I fell in love. (Want to know how?? Click here)
In Malaysia, I worshipped the Lord more freely than I ever had before.
In Malaysia, I figured out what kind of woman I wanted to be and started walking in it.
In Malaysia, on a rooftop in the heart of Penang, I reclaimed my heart that had been wrapped up in someone else for far too long and put it back in the hands of the One who created me. And I found myself entering into a relationship that had been waiting for me the entire time: one where I was the bride and Christ was the bridegroom.
For most of my life, I had been caught in the lie that my value and my worth was based on whether or not people pursued me. And my heart’s desire was for marriage. Not so that my husband and I could come alongside each other and work to further the Kingdom of God, but because in my head, marriage was the ultimate validation of my worth. To have a man pursue me and choose me said that I was worth something. That I had value. That I was more than the things that had been spoken over me.
But in the last year, the Lord has had me on such a sweet journey of discovering who He is and who I am in Him. The Race, as a whole, was a journey of me finding my identity in Christ; a journey of finding my worth and value in being a daughter of the King; a journey of being loved by the only One who can ever satisfy my soul.
So, as I enter into this next season of my life and figuring out what the Lord has for me, I enter it walking in the freedom that He has brought me this year, knowing that it doesn’t end here, but that He has so much more for me.
So, as I transition back into a first-world country with hot showers, toilets that flush, and Chipotle burritos whenever I want, please join me in praying for direction, wisdom and discernment concerning what the Lord has for me next. Thank you so much!!
View from the Roof where I spent a lot mornings…..and afternoons…..and nights hanging out with Jesus 😀
Photo Credit: Clark Moser
