I always thought I was the exception. I have gone to multiple counseling sessions to work through ALL my issues, so I thought. After going to training camp God started the unraveling process. I learned that I had only barely touched the surface.
I told myself before arriving in Gainesville, Georgia that I would be myself. I wasn’t going to hide or pretend to be someone I wasn’t.
After a few days, I could feel myself reverting back to what I normally do. Observe, see how people interact and tailor my personality to fit in. A chameleon is the best way to explain it. I was convicted, I held others opinions higher than God’s opinion of me. I would get my worth and value from others.
I could hear God loud and clear even with all the activity bustling around! God created all of us and he created me. If I try to be someone other than myself, I’m pretty much telling him that His creation and ideas aren’t good enough.
At camp, I made a promise to love the qualities and characteristics he gave me and to not compare myself to others. I will get my worth and value from Him. This is going to be an unraveling journey, where I will be able to experience more freedom!
This has been a huge risk for me as I am who I am and will continue to take off my masks. I want to be raw, genuine and honest about who I was created to be. This is a new habit I hope to cultivate on this journey.
We all have different stories, different families, and genes. We were all created for a specific purpose. It’s up to us to carry out that plan and not compare ourselves. We offer so much to others we come in contact with. Be true, be you ??
Xoxoxo
Laney
