Oxford dictionary defines unprepared as “Not ready or able to deal with something.”
CHECK
Merriam Webster dictionary defines unqualified as “not having the skills, knowledge, or experience needed to do a particular job or activity”
Yup, Check!
Webster dictionary also defines unworthy as “not good enough to deserve something or someone, not appropriate or acceptable for a good or respected person.”
Ha, wow. So accurate. Check!
I don’t want to go on the world race and have people back home think that I went because I was good enough to go, or because I knew enough, or because I had enough camping practice (I have like, none)… I am unprepared, unqualified and unworthy to go on this race.
I am not enough.
I’ve only had a relationship with God for 2 years. Sometimes, I get lost trying to find different books in the bible. I fall asleep when praying some night. Sometimes, I can’t focus at church. I don’t always have the nicest of thoughts. I don’t always make the best decisions. I sin every single day. I get attached to worldly things. I occasionally choose other activities over much needed God time. I struggle when I’m tempted, and spiritual warfare can really wreck me sometimes. There must be people in this world who are more qualified than I am. There must be people who are more prepared to share the gospel! Heck, I have a pacemaker. A hunk of metal in my chest that beats my heart! There must be people who don’t have any sort of physical limitations that are more prepared to go! And I certainly am not worthy to follow in the footsteps of Jesus and represent God.
But God uses people like me. People who other people look at and go, you? Really? Are you sure?!
Having a relationship with God means being an Ambassador for Him, for Christ. An Ambassador is defined as “the highest-ranking person who represents his or her own government while living in another country” While we are here and not at home in Heaven, we represent our government – God/Jesus/the Holy Spirit and the living words of the bible.
And guess what? God uses the weak to teach the strong. Gods power is perfected in our weakness. How can we see how strong, mighty and faithful he is if we always have enough strength for our tasks, enough faith in our hearts and enough courage to just jump in… He uses people who can’t do it all to show the world that HE CAN.
So while I may feel incredibly unprepared, unqualified, unworthy…inaqeduate in many ways for this adventure, this mission… I am a tool for God. I am an instrument for his Glory. I am exactly how he needs me to be. Regardless of my drowsy prayers or my not-so-wise decisions. God has me in the palm of his hand, and there I will stay forever.
I’m Lacey. Your unqualified, unprepared, unworthy and inadequate ambassador of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. And I’m proud of that.
As always, I would like to ask you to prayerfully consider supporting this unqualified girl as she gets ready to go Love like Jesus. My first deadline of 3,500 dollars is quickly approaching, July 5th. And as you can see up on the top there, I am pretty far from that deadline! While I am called to go on this trip, maybe you are being called to be one of my supporters, one of my partners from afar! Take a moment and pray, and if it is something God is leading you to, please know that I cannot do this without you! And I would greatly and whole-heatedly appreciate your support! And if its not, that’s okay! God has me. And God will provide in his own way, at his own time.
Thank you for reading and God Bless. <3
