“My grace is sufficient, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” 2 Corinthians 12:9
People pleasing was my go to answer when asked about my greatest “weakness” in interviews because who doesn’t love somebody who will do whatever they ask. It really seemed so harmless to me until it was all I cared about. Growing up I wanted to seem perfect to the outside world. I tried to act like it was no big deal when people gave me compliments but really it was what I thrived for.
Disappointing others was my greatest fear. Because I had this mindset I couldn’t say no, I would put my own morals to the side and put everyone else’s in front of mine. I knew this was a problem but didn’t want to tell anyone because it would be a flaw in my character. It took a lot of tugging and pulling for me to finally break down and cry out to the Lord to save me from this life I got myself trapped in.
2017 was a huge year of growth for me all because I fully put my faith in Christ. It wasn’t a relationship like the past where I only went to him when I needed something. Last year consisted of several breakdowns and without the Lord by my side I don’t know how I could have gotten through them. Although, painful at the time, these moments really humbled me and opened my eyes to the truth about the Lord and myself.
He is sufficient. He is everything we desire and need. I am broken and far from perfect. However, I am a daughter of the one true King and he has truly redeemed me from all pain from this world. This world is only temporary. Focusing on eternity, rather than things of this world, brings victory. We can’t depend on things or other people to make us happy. Only the Lord can because he is the ultimate provider. Last year I didn’t know what I needed but He always did…
He provided mentors when I needed guidance. Friends and family when I felt alone. Grace when I needed hope. Conversations when I needed amends. Forgiveness when I needed freedom. Prayer warriors when I needed strength. Peace when I felt overwhelmed. And His presence when I needed Him.
We should “boast all the more gladly about our weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest upon us.” Let down your prideful hearts because there is no shame in admitting you don’t have it all together. Nobody does. Only the Lord does because He is sufficient in all things.
