It’s been a challenge these past few months for me to just sit and rest in the Lord. In my head and my heart I fully believe he has my future planned perfectly, I just can’t help but wish he’d clue me in on it sometimes. Although I know without a doubt God has me where he wants me now, I have just also wanted a peak into the next season.
God tends to speak to me a lot through songs, and as I sat on top of my roof in Cambodia, looking out over our city, I began listening to the song, “Where I Belong” by Cory Asbury:
Your presence is all I am longing for, here in the secret place.
Your nearness is all I am waiting for here in the quiet place.
Your nearness is all I am waiting for here in the quiet place.
Here in the secret place my soul waits for you alone,
just like the watchmen wait for dawn.
Here I’ve finally found the place where we’ll meet, Lord, face to face.
I’ve finally found where I belong, I’ve finally found where I belong
In your presence.
I’ve finally found where I belong, Lord, it’s to be with you.
I am my beloved’s and He is mine, so come into your garden and take delight in me.
Lord, take delight in me.
Here in your presence, God, I find my rest.
God has showed me over and over again this week that this is a lesson he wants to teach me: to be fully satisfied in and long for his presence. That he wants me to delight in him and understand how much he delights in me.
Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart.
-Psalm 37:4
-Psalm 37:4
Being fully alive and satisfied in the Lord’s presence is what I long for most in the world, not the knowledge of where I will go in the world. I’ll go anywhere and do anything and he knows that, but first I desire to find all my satisfaction, my worth, and my very existence in Christ. That my heart may beat to see his good and perfect will done not only in my life, but throughout the earth. I am my beloved’s and he is mine.
