Well, here I am: it’s the last night of FINAL debrief.
How do I feel, you ask?
I think I may have an answer for you, now. This whole week–and perhaps this whole month–I’ve been trying to figure out how I’m SUPPOSED to feel/think. Something I’ve learned about myself over the course of the Race is that I’m very good at following the rules and doing what I’m supposed to do, what is appropriate. So concerning the end of the Race, how am I supposed to feel?
There is no correct answer, and I think I have finally accepted this fact and anticipate that I will learn more about living in freedom from this perpetual obligatory mindset. So unapologetically, here is how I feel…
– I’m really excited to go home!
– I’m tired of living on the Race
– I am going to miss people a lot
– But I’m not that sad because I’m confident that I will see my squadmates again (Project Searchlight is only a few weeks away)
– I don’t wish the Race was longer
– I’m not worried about re-entry, but I know it’s not just going to be easy-peasy-lemon-squeezy
– I don’t think my transition back home will be as hard as people say it is
– I’m ready for the next chapter in my life
The end of the Race is different for everyone, and there truly is no right way to feel or think. Overall, my transformation this year was more drastic than some, but less drastic than others; and I believe that how we transform correlates with how we will re-enter life off the Race. Having done re-entry before does help, though I’ve never been away from home for this long of a time or with knowledge of so many different contexts of existence.
This transition into the next chapter will be interesting. It will be an adventure in and of itself. Care to join me?
(More to come!)
I’m going to really miss these faces (and more, of course)…
Black and Yellow, Black and Yellow…
Lumies for Life!
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