To be honest, I was having a very difficult time writing this entry. I must have started and backspaced an entire paragraph at least three times. So I apologize, in advance–this post is me letting off a little steam.
Labor Day weekend signified the end of my summer plans, and now it's down to business with finding a job, preparing for missions presentations, figuring out what gear I need to buy and when to buy it, keeping up fundraising…the list grows by the day (REALLY). I feel as if everything just came crashing down on top of me at the start of this week, like I was holding up water in a dam and the door suddenly gave way. (Things seemed under control just a couple of days ago.) Now, I'm rushing away, carried by the water, trying to gather my bearings without much hope of slowing down. And I realize that the only thing I can do is let the water take me where it wills. Essentially, I have to just go with the flow and do whatever I can, to the best of my abilities, to stay afloat and eventually swim to a place of rest.
Yes–perhaps the imagery is borderline cliché, but this quite accurately describes how I'm feeling right now.
I am not completely discouraged, though–Satan doth try, but he fails.
One of my teammates posted a "Keep Calm and Fundraise On" picture on our team facebook group, and that small seed of encouragement has grown more than I took notice of.
Keep calm and fundraise on.
Keep calm and write on.
Keep calm and pray on.
Keep calm and be patient (on?)…etc.
Those Britains knew what they were talking about.
And my most recent piece of encouragement came from my Android Bible app. The verse of today is Psalm 68:19: "Praise be to the Lord, to God our Savior, who daily bears our burdens."
Pheww…amen.
