When we came back to Thailand this month, I asked the Lord to give me one person that I could really invest in. I asked for a chance to develop a deep relationship with one person who needed to know Him or who needed to be reminded of His love.
Our ministry this month is assistant teaching at Fangchanupathum School. We each got assigned to specific teachers and the teacher I got assigned to was someone who the last team that was here invested in pretty deeply.
I got extremely excited and began praying over him. I was really excited to meet him, but the entire first week we were here, Jp wasn’t. He was sick so he was absent from school, and I was teaching his classes alone. I became pretty discouraged because with only three and a half weeks of ministry, that was already a short amount of time for the relationship to develop but now I only had two and a half weeks. Awkwardness is my middle name and I was really scared I couldn’t become friends with him and coherently share the gospel in that amount of time. But I was limiting God. I was telling Him, He wasn’t big enough to bring friendship between JP and I in two weeks. I was saying He wasn’t big enough for the gospel to be shared effectively in two weeks. I was saying that my weaknesses were His weaknesses and that He couldn’t use me despite my inability to contain my awkwardness and make a normal friend (lol). The Lord gently reprimanded me for those thoughts and reminded me that in my weaknesses He is made strong, and that His desire for JP’s heart is way stronger than mine ever would be. He reminded me that my job is to love JP well and to tell him about who my Savior is, to present the gospel to him, but the Lord will do the rest.
JP is an incredible teacher. Watching him interact with his students and the patience he possesses gave me incredibly high hopes for what he could do in the kingdom if he was to come to know the Lord. He lives in a lot of hopelessness though, because of a lot of tragedy he has had to experience in life. I want him to meet Jesus really badly because I want him to know the hope that he can be walking in. I want him to know , deep deep down inside, that no matter what happens, there’s Someone who cares, Someone who will always care.
So as you guys are praying for me this week and the rest of this month, I would love for you to add JP to your prayer list. Please pray that I remember that while I may not see the harvest while I’m here, I plant the seeds and pour as much water on them as possible during this time. Pray that his heart is open and receptive to the gospel but that it is given in a way he needs to receive it and that the love of the Father will overwhelm him in really incredible ways.
Love you guys,
K
