Fun fact about Ky – I am really not the mushy gushy type. I know, shocking. I used to be, but somewhere along time I lost a little bit of that. Anyway, this post, it feels pretty mushy. Which can be a little uncomfortable.. but you know what? I love it. So here it goes.
This, Valentine’s morning, I felt the Lord ask me to write a letter of why I love Him. And let me tell you, the list goes on and on…
I love You because You bring out the best in me. I feel like I am my best self when I’m in communion with You. Patient and kind. Caring for others more than myself. Strong yet gentle. Bold. Gracious. Thoughtful. Joyous. And free.
I have been so alive lately and I know it’s rooted in the intimacy I’ve gotten to walk in with You.
All these characteristics I’ve learned from You, from the way You are with me. Like when You patiently listen to me ramble, graciously inserting chuckles here and there to calm my storms.
You also bring out the potential in me. You show me things You have equipped me for that I never knew I was capable of – like leading a group of 15 young adults around the world. What? And often I’m not fully equipped for them… But then You’re right there with me to help along the way.
I love how You’ll do absolutely miraculous things to answer my prayers. Like when I was just days away from a fundraising deadline and didn’t know what to do and You sent someone to casually donate $2,300? You’re nuts!
No one is too far from You. Not Nicky Cruz, president of one of the most notorious gangs at age 14. Not Paul, a zealous Pharisee. Not even me, a girl that tried to gain identity from every other source this world offers.
The things You do to reach people – its insane. You care SO much. You would fly a group of twenty Christians across the world just to bring one nineteen year old Buddhist, Malay boy to Yourself. Your love is radical!
You never give up. Even when others may see someone or something as a lost cause, no, You see their real potential. Even in times when I fail over and over, You’re still right, just waiting for me to turn back to.
The way You encounter people leaves me in awe. People can’t help but be forever changed.
You’re willing to walk through lessons with me hundreds of thousands of times, without a glimpse of frustration. Knowing that some day I’ll get it. And You remind me of that when I beat myself up for not getting it sooner.
You give the BEST gifts. And when I least expect it. Like getting to write this letter on beachside Ecuador, or getting to see a volcanic eruption, or swim in glow-in-the-dark plankton, or meet a long lost soul sistaaa. You know the things that make my heart sing and You delight in surprising me with them. It’s the best! You are just so FUN!
You know me better than I know myself. You make it super obvious for me (because you know I need it superrr obvious) when I need to walk through certain doors, and You give me no choice but to rest when I need rest!
You are the ultimate protector. I know I am safe with You. Even in the times I put distance between us, You still make sure I am taken care of.
And You’re trustworthy. I can trust You with my family and my people back home when I leave – that You’ll look after them too. Providing for them, and showing up in the midst of their chaos as well.
And You always make sure I know how proud You are of me. Even when I feel like the biggest failure. You make sure I see Your smile upon me.
Man, I could go on and on and on. And on. And on. I just love You! And I can’t believe the way I get to be loved by You.
Never forget your forever Love. — We were made for loving You.
