Hello everyone!
My fundraising deadline is coming up fast, and I am far behind on where I need to be. I need to have $3,000 by September 28th or I will be unable to go on this amazing and yet unpredictable journey that God has placed on my heart. When I was first accepted into the World Race, I was overjoyed! I never thought something like the World Race could exist. Right away I started talking to my parents about who should I talk to and what should I be doing to fund raise.
Everything was going by so fast that I didn’t notice that rain drops had started falling. People were questioning why I wanted to do the race. Was my wanting to go on the journey really a leap of faith or was it really just me wanting to get away? It started raining harder when people started telling me all the dangers that I could face if I really went. Buckets of rain started to pour when people started to question my relationship with God. Because I didn’t read my Bible every day, how could I have a relationship with God? I didn’t have the same biblical knowledge as they did, so how could I know what God had planned for me if they didn’t know what God had planned for them? I didn’t have an answer for them. I was/am thrilled and excited for the chance to do God’s work, to be there for people, to be a shoulder for someone to cry on. I was so caught up in everything that I didn’t even see their doubts and questions coming.
I started to question and second guess myself if I was actually doing what He wanted. Was I really just being selfish? The only thing I could do was to get away from all of the distractions, to go to my special swing outside and pray.
Praying and swinging are my stress relievers. I stayed on the swing for an hour praying to God and asking for His guidance because I was confused and didn’t understand why people weren’t as thrilled as I was. That’s when God reminded me of all of the speakers He placed before me, they talked about how they were serving in other countries because they felt God calling them to help those who were/are in need. He reminded me how those speakers tore at my heart, and that’s when I knew that He was also calling me.
I do have an answer now. My answer is: I don’t understand why God does what He does, and the only way to understand is by taking a leap of faith. I may never have the same relationship as others do with our Heavenly Father, I may question Him and I may at times attempt to just say no altogether. I know people that have stronger relationships with Him, but does that mean I shouldn’t take a leap of faith and try?
I do worry about not making the financial deadline in time, but I know where to let my worries rest, and that’s in God. He tells us in Philippians 4:6 “Do not worry about anything but in everything, by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your request be made known to God.”
I have fallen behind in the fundraising process, but even through the rain storm God has guided me. I have known from the start that I could never make it on my own. I do need people’s generosity with both financial help and prayers. If you feel like God is calling you to give, thank you. If you feel like God is calling you to pray, thank you. But most of all thank you for taking time to read this. Have a very blessed day.
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Again thank you.
