We left Antigua Guatemala the 31st, and drove about 18 hours on a Tica Bus to Nicaragua. We are officially starting month 3. Our Squad had debrief and now last month in Latin America, time has flown by! This month my team is working and living with team O.I.L. Where we are this month is Mateo 5:16, a huge ministry with a number of churches, which we will be working in kids ministry, youth, preschools, hospitals, old folks home, and with special needs.
Last month I worked in a malnutrition clinic, also a hospital working with cerebral palsy. I walked in the hospital scared, overwhelmed, not knowing how to take care or treat these kids. I was very uncomfortable to be honest, I wasn't sure how the Lord was going to use me with these kids, if I didn't even know how to function with them. I asked the Father for help to give me eyes to see these kids the way He does, also to comfort them the way He would.
Our Father answered that prayer. I've never felt so comfortable with the kids in my life. I enjoyed dancing with them, helping brush their teeth, just having fun, laughing and being silly. That was all the Father. He gave me a passion to work with special needs kids, a love I can't even explain for them, they mean so much to me, so this month I'm definitely excited about the ministries we will be doing.
That's right I'm giving up.
The Father wants me to give up a few "things", so He can do some big stuff this month with me and through me. I gave up Facebook for this month. Last month we had Internet about every day well here we have Internet possibly every Friday on our day off. I will have email if you would like to email me at [email protected] I will be blogging as well.
I believe God wants to show me so much this month, so He is just shredding things out. I got this vision of a paper shredder. Just sticking one piece of paper in at a time, letting it shred because they are just materials I don't need.
Just a conversation with our Father
Now this is powerful….
One "thing" Dad told me to give up was make up! Yup that's right I said make up, this is a huge "thing" for me to give up. Makes me feel beautiful because I can cover up all my acne which makes me feel good about myself, it is a comfort.
He said this month you don't need it. He told me I'm not hiding behind what I think makes me beautiful. He said I make you beautiful Kylee, so find peace and beauty in being you. Who I created you to be with out covering up what I have made. I have made you from my image. Let that beauty of Jesus Christ shine through you and I promise no one cares whether you have make up or not. YOU ARE MY BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER.
Right after this I gave my make up bag to Liz to keep this whole month, so I wouldn't be tempted. Just a couple "things" the Lord is shredding out of my life this month. My prayer has been I'm so ready to go deeper never realized these couple things were hindering that process. Now I'm ready and willing, I see my Father waiting with His arms wide open and Now I am jumping in them!
