This is an entry I wrote in the notes of my phone on March 1st at 11:49 that night. I wasn’t able to sleep and was thinking about a testimony I had seen that day about forgiveness and just decided to write. I hope my words make you think.
“I was recently thinking about what would happen if I died tomorrow. If I died tomorrow, would I be content with the life I lived? Would I be okay with how I treated people? Would I be okay with how I left things?
The answer is no.
I would not be content with the life I lived. I would not be okay with how I treated people. I would not be okay with how I left things.
I am not saying that I am not proud of some of the things I have done, because I am proud, but at the same time, there are things I regret.
I regret not apologizing. I regret not being kind. I regret not trusting. I regret making bad choices. I regret not forgiving.
Everyday, Jesus calls us to live in Him and live for Him. He calls us to love others as He loves us. When we choose not to love, we are choosing not to follow Jesus.
So all those times where I didn’t forgive, I didn’t apologize, I wasn’t kind, I made bad choices, I was not living for the Lord. I was living for myself.
I regret not living life absolutely for Christ.
So, to those who I have hurt, to those who are awaiting forgiveness, to those who I never apologized to, I am sorry. I am deeply sorry that I was living a selfish life only focused on what I wanted.
Now, of course I am not saying that I am going to be perfect from here on out. I am going to make mistakes, my temper will get the best of me, I am not perfect.
But, what I am saying is that all I can do is attempt with my full being to try and live a Christ-like life. All I can do is try to live a life that the Lord would be proud of.”
The goal of this blog post is to make you think… ask yourself, would you be content?
