This past week I have been asked by so many people the famous question, “Why are you going on the World Race?” My answers for the most part have always been very clear: to hold the broken hearted, to figure out what God wants me to do, to travel the world and experience all God has to offer, etc.
A few days ago a mentor of mine asked me the same question, but when he asked it, it gave me a different perspective. All of the reasons that I have given people have been selfish reasons. ‘I’ want to hold the broken hearted, ‘I’ want to figure out what God wants me to do, ‘I’ want to travel the world and see all that God has to offer. Are you seeing a trend here?
I began to realize that all of these reason, while they may seem to be good or even are good, are reasons why I want to go. So I began to ask myself and God why He wanted me to go. I was pretty positive that He did. Last year I had several people prophesy that I was leaving in January for the race without even knowing my intentions of going. He even told me on numerous occasions that I was going during my quite time with Him. But now I questioned that and asked Him again if He wanted me to even go…and if so..why? What are His intentions for me to go?
As I asked these questions I didn’t get an answer…at first. It was very depressing and made me question whether or not I was even meant to go. But over the course of that day He began speaking life into me. He asked me this question: “If I asked you to dig a hole in each of these countries and sit in that hole for the entire 11 months without preaching my Gospel, helping or conversing with anyone, but just sitting in the hole would you still go? Would you do what I had asked?”
This question puzzled me and I got very honest with myself. “Yes Daddy, I would sit in the hole for as long as you asked. I wouldn’t want to do it and certainly would like doing it, but your knowledge and will is much more important than my own.” And then it hit me. I’m not going on the World Race to accomplish my own goals or do the things I want to do, but instead I am going to do the will of God in my life and whatever He asks of me. I might not get to experience all that I want to, but that’s okay. Because as long as I am doing what He wants me to do and as long as I am walking the straight and narrow path I know that I will find a joy that cannot be found anywhere else in the entire universe.
So, that’s why I’m going on the World Race. Not to hold the broken hearted, not to figure out what God wants me to do, and not to travel the world and see the vast beauty that God has created. I am going because He has told me to go and I will do whatever He wants me to do. I know the road ahead will not be easy, but it will be worth it.
