22 Immediately Jesus made the disciples get into the boat and go on ahead of him to the other side, while he dismissed the crowd. 23 After he had dismissed them, he went up on a mountainside by himself to pray. Later that night, he was there alone, 24 and the boat was already a considerable distance from land, buffeted by the waves because the wind was against it.
25 Shortly before dawn Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake. 26 When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. “It’s a ghost,” they said, and cried out in fear.
27 But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.”
28 “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”
29 “Come,” he said.
Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”
31 Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”
32 And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. 33 Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.” – Matthew 14:22-23
This story has been coming to my mind and heart for the past week. I feel so in tune with how Peter must have felt when taking the first few steps out of the boat and onto the water.
Earlier last month I got quiet and alone with God and listened to what He had to say to me. One of the things that has hit my heart the most was when He told me to stop raising funds for the World Race! I freaked out and asked Him, "Do you realize that I still need $1800 by August 1st?!" "I will provide!", He said. – So here I am…trying to keep my eyes on Jesus while walking on the water. When I keep my eyes on Him it is so easy, but when I stop and realize that, "Holy crap! I'm walking on freaking water!" I tend to sink fast.
Looking back over the past year and a half I have foud myself to have been so foolish in believing that I have had child like faith. Now that He has put this in front of me, my faith is being pushed to its limits (I'm thankful He's allowing the limits to be stretched quite a bit too!).
Daddy, please give me the strength to trust in You on this one and every one and thing after it. I need You desperatley and my life is so boring without Your control and hand over it. Allow me not to stray from Your will even if it alters mine. I trust in You, my God, my King, and my Savior! In Jesus' name I pray. Amen!
