Here in Romania God has changed my heart. He's given my life meaning. He's given me an outstanding revelation that is His love (many blogs to come on that matter). The Lord has shouted into my ears in a gentle way "I LOVE YOU AND YOUR WORTH EVERYTHING!" – Yes my heart has been changed here in Romania and I'm now a Dangerous man running after God and His Kingdom; MY KINGDOM!
These past few days God has been showing me that I was loved by Him first and that's why I love Him and why I'm able to love others. I know that God has a great plan that I can't mess up! I know that He's given me a choice in how involved I am in that plan, and I want to be involved to the fullest! – So God has asked me to betray my own heart and pursue His heart instead.
Now to respect the story of others I cannot give the full details of what God has asked me to do. In short He's asked me to make a choice. To chase after what my heart desires (in the flesh, but not in a "bad" way) or to give up my heart's desire and instead to push that passion into God and His heart. The Lord told me that I can choose either and I will be loved the same, but if I choose Him I will grow closer to Him in an intimate way and be more involved in His great plan.
This choice has not been easy by any means. I've chosen intimacy with Him, but still have to grieve my losses. The loss cannot be compared to the gain with Him, but a loss is a loss and must be grieved. It hurts immensely, but has a sweetness to it as my Trust in Him has already grown.
Yes, sometimes God asks us to suffer for His glory, but He'll also pay us back ten fold! How great is the love of our God that He gives us choice!!
