Although we are only just a few days into this month I sense a dramatic change and shift in the air. God is working in my squad and changing our flesh-filled hearts to become more righteous as is His.
Last night Holly (our logistics leader who works at AIM) and Tim (who focuses with AIM's new program Unsung Heroes) came out to the compound and are here for a week. They opened up last night with worship and proceeded to allow a safe place in which our entire squad was able to be vulnerable and open with each other.
The time was unimaginably filled with the Holy Spirit. As I prayed over my brothers and sisters who were broken I began to feel a deep pain in my back. The pain was like that of a 90 pound backpack weighing me down. It hurt and was hard to stand.
When I realized the pain was getting worse I felt the Spirit call upon a memory from last month. Mabe (pronounced Maw-bay), our host last month, spoke a word over me. This word was that my heart is too kind, almost too kind. She said I pick up the pains and burdens of others and carry them on my back, much like a backpack. She told me this helps take the load off of other people I'm praying over, however it's not my weight to carry. She said each night I must take the backpack off and set it at the Lord's feet.
While pondering on this I realized every time I pray over someone who is hurting I get this pain. So I tested it out and asked The Lord to take the backpack off so that I may be at rest. I imagined taking it off and laying it at the Lord's feet.
As soon as we were done praying the pain in my back dispersed and I felt so joyful. My heart was leaping out of my chest! I continued praying over my broken brothers and sisters and repeated the process many times over and over again.
How beautiful is this blessing God has bestowed upon me. How great is the God I serve!
