This month I have been reading Robby Dawkins book, “Do What Jesus Did”. I met Robby at a
Vineyard “Youth Quake” conference back in 2012. I had watched the film, “Furious Love” directed by Darren Wilson from Wonderlust Productions prior to going to this conference and thought I recognized Robby from that movie. I wasn’t exactly positive if the man at the conference was actually Robby or not so I pulled the clip of him up on my phone and approached him. As I showed him the clip he seemed a little embarrassed and insisted that I tell him who showed it to me. I didn’t know it at the time, but Robby was the key speaker at the conference that weekend. I never will forget looking into his eyes and for the first time in my life seeing the Light of the Kingdom in someones eyes.
(Robby Dawkins)
Before Robby spoke that night I knew very little about him other than the stories he told in the
film. After meeting him and seeing the Light that was in him I knew that I wanted whatever he
had. He didn’t do anything special or say anything to me that was foundation shattering. He was
just being himself and through that I was able to see the love of God. So when I saw that Robby
had written a book I had to get my hands on it and see what he had to say.
In the book Robby talks about the different ways that Christ taught the disciples and the rest
of His followers how to heal the sick, raise the dead, and cast out demons. All in all it’s a
great book for understanding one viewpoint of how Matthew 10:8 and similar commands of Christ
can be put into play, but above all it teaches a life-changing message: how to love.
I am learning that it doesn’t matter who we are, what we’re going through, or where we’ve been,
God can and will use us to expand His Kingdom and bring glory to Him. We’re only required to go
and that my friends is the easiest/hardest part of our ministry. For me it has been a constant
struggle for the majority of my life to go and love people genuinely. I have always been under
the impression that I have to prove myself or in recent years “bring God everywhere I went.”
Looking back I can see now that while my intentions may have been good, they brought little to
no fruit and left myself and others hurting. I was a coward and terrified of stepping out for
fear of failure. I didn’t want to love the people around me and show them my true heart because
I was afraid of being hurt. I was afraid of taking a risk.
I find the message that people like Robby Dawkins bring when they talk about stepping out in faith and taking risky steps to pray and heal the sick and such are really life guidelines on how to be bold and just love people. It is so hard for me to break down my walls and let people see and have access to the real Kyle Stinnett. I rob myself and others every day of the real me because I am afraid of getting hurt. I’m afraid to let people inside my walls because of the hurt I’ve encountered in my past. I’m afraid of letting people see the real me because the real me fails a lot. The real me is so desperate and dependent on God that I literally cannot operate on any level by myself.
I look back and remember looking into Robby’s eyes and seeing that Light in them. I remember him not trying to impress me or show off in any way, rather he was just being himself. I remember that his walls weren’t up and he looked different. That’s the kind of bold action I want to walk in. To be satisfied with who I am in Christ. I don’t want to be afraid to let people in. I want to be bold enough to fail.
I can see already since obtaining this revelation from the Holy Spirit that it has majorly impacted my life. Somehow, someway, God has transformed my mind and heart and my walls are down. I don’t know where they went, nor do I care. I still have stuff I need to work on, but I have found that I have a new boldness in my walk and am excited to fail, because that means that my goals are so high that I by myself cannot meet them. It means that I need God more than ever to accomplish what I feel God is calling me to.
