I love science classes.
I have my whole life.
I always really liked talking about stars and planets.
It really blows me away to think about how big that stuff is.
It makes me feel pretty small.
I always thought it was interesting to learn about the sun and earth.
I enjoy hearing about different ideas of how things work in relation to each other.
For example…back in the day people believed that the sun revolved around the earth.
Later, people came up with the idea that the earth revolves around the sun.
But somewhere along the line, I came up with my own philosophy, you might have heard of it.
This philosophy is that if the world has to revolve around something, it might as well be me.
If you could be in my head right now…you would know that I am sitting here trying to figure out how to word my next sentence, because I am more concerned about how you are going to look at me then how you might reflect on yourself after reading this blog.
My thoughts so often are centered on me and how things will effect me and I don’t like it.
I am trying to figure out where in my life I decided that I am more important than everyone else.
If you are wondering where this is coming from, I had a discussion with someone the other day about the World Race.
We were talking about all the things I thought I should do or how I should react or how I was going to be impacted…etc, when this person reminded me that this race isn’t about me.
I wonder what it would be like if I could genuinely believe that this trip is about others.
It is about my teammates.
It is about my supporters at home.
It is about the people supporting me that are part of the AIM staff.
It is about you, whoever you are, reading my blog.
It is about the people that I will encounter on this journey.
And most importantly it is about God.
How did I ever become the center of the universe and put myself before all of you?
Please forgive me for being so selfish.
The last couple days I have been thinking a lot and talking about this with a few people.
One of my friends directed me to a great verse that I want to share with you.
Philippians 2:3-4…
Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves.
Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others.
Personally, I was reminded of Matthew 16:25—
For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it.
Hey God…Please help me get my heart in the right place.
Free me from my selfish ways.
Use me.
Help me lose my life so that I can serve You. Help me lose my life so that I can serve others.
Be patient with me as I learn what it means to make You the center of everything.
