“So you were running through a wide open field chasing Jesus. You were both laughing, full of joy, careless in the care of God, with the soft, dewy grass beneath your feet. But then y’all ran into the woods. The grass surrounding y’all turned into lave and fire, and Jesus was still freely and joyfully running in the narrow strip of grass left. But you were so scared to keep going on the grass because you thought you would fall off the path into the lava. Jesus was calling you forward, but you just stopped. You were too scared to fall, that you just stopped.”
This is a vision Carsen got for me. She interpreted it as my temptations when I get home but it actually has something to do with my life right now.
I’ve recently asked God to reveal the brokenness in my life that I’ve forgotten about. On Sunday the pastor gave a sermon about our minds. One part was talking our conscious and our sub-conscious and how therapist kind of hypnotize the person to get into their sub-conscious to bring out things they might have forgotten. The problem with that is the person might not be ready to have that in their conscious, but if Holy Spirit is there with you then He’ll guide you through it. That’s what I want to happen with me. I want God to lead me through my brokenness but I’m scared of the hurt that might happen. I have a straight path to Jesus in the vision but I’m scared of falling into the lava because I know the pain that it’ll bring.
Right now I’m still on the other side of Jesus. I have a straight path to Him and freedom but I don’t want to go through the pain of my brokenness. But the vision Carsen got for me makes me realize that there is still a grassy path directly towards Him and if I have my eyes on Jesus then it’s not going to hurt because He will be waiting for me and leading me through it all.
