“Through the dark, you’re reaching for my heart, restoring every weakness for your good. Every sin is covered by your blood, I’m resting in your mercy, fully yours” -‘Let Go’ SEU Worship
There was one point in time I hated this song with everything in me. I would just look at the title and cringe and angrily press the next song button. At the time I bought this song I had loved it, but whenever God actually asked me to let go of something I definitely skipped this song whenever I could. I always felt convicted and ran away from what God was calling me to do.
But looking back I realized I didn’t look at the words closely. Through the darkness, through all the sin and shame and guilt I had, God reached down to my heart. He didn’t care that he had to get his hands messy to get to me, all he saw was that he wanted me. He wanted my heart for himself. And when he has my heart, he restores every weakness. All of them. For him. His glory is ultimately for my good. And all my sin is covered. Its removed as far as the east is from the west, and I can REST in his mercy that he gives so freely. Mercy that only comes from him. Mercy that I don’t deserve that he so graciously gives.
The part of the song that actually talks about letting go is in the bridge which goes “I give up, I let go, my heart will find its home with you. Your presence I’m running to, so take me deeper here with you”. Wow, how powerful. If I wasn’t so focused on the title and actually listened closely to the song, I would’ve seen that it’s actually not about the letting go part. Not entirely. It’s about the part of running straight into the arms of My Beloved and finding my home in him. Putting my heart in his hands and going deeper in our relationship. To see that he is better than anything this world could offer, and as a result of understanding that I want to let go of anything holding me back from him.
God wasn’t “commanding” me to let go of something I desperately wanted. Or someone I should say. He was actually showing me a desire of his heart: to be loved. He wants to be loved by me deeply and I wasn’t loving him with all my heart, soul, and mind. He was inviting me to something more precious. A deeper relationship with him. An invitation he gives me now. An invitation to not just love God, but to be in love with him. To live out of a place of knowing and believing that I am deeply loved by my Father. Because when I live out of a place of love, I am who God has made me to be. And I should graciously give out what he graciously gives me. It should just flow out.
So what is God asking me to let go of you ask? Everything. Absolutely everything. My own will, my own ways, my own desires and in return I gain his will, his ways, and his desires. “For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will find it” -Luke 9:24. I’m not losing my life for me, I’m losing it for him. I’m giving up everything for him because he is so worth it. His love for me is so uncomprehendable at times that I just sit here dumbfounded at why in the world he still loves me. But he does. And I love him too, but I want to love him more. Lose everything that is holding me back from him. To let go of everything keeping me from falling in love with my savior. I’m losing my life for someone who offers life. Losing my life to gain him, because he is my life. Losing little, to gain much.
P.S. Go give this song a listen, its on iTunes and Youtube and its so so good 10/10 recommend
