Dazed by the lights from the bars she walks. She doesn't know her worth, her value, she's hungry, she's thirsty, she's bound, and she's caged. This isn't just some girl lost to the world. This girl was me three weeks ago. Yes me the missionary, 'saving' the world, while the world saved me. This month taught me love in new ways and brought me greater freedom in God.
When I started this month I was told I loved well and would really love on the girls in the bars. I didn't realize how easy it would be to love these girls. Girls and ladyboys the world sees as lost. People bound in sextrafficking. People that don't see a way out. People that don't know unconditional love. A love that I know well and wanted to share. I loved by being present. I loved by buying the girls a juice. I loved by getting to know these women. I loved by being genuine. I loved with all I had an overflowing, infinite love! A love that really comes from the Father. The girls saw this love and knew I was different. They were drawn to me. I was drawn to them. They are more than prostitutes, they're my friends!
One evening God worked his magic and we were able to take Amy and Chloe (names have been changed) out for a rotee. Normally in order to leave the bar the girls need to be purchased for the night or an hour. Well we didn't have to pay to take them out. We were able to share a rotee( like a crepe but better) and get to know them. They were able to relax and enjoy some time away. They shared about their lives and their pain. They shared about their bondage. We loved them, we listened. The looks we got sitting on the side of the road were priceless. I guess a prostitute, a lady boy, a Mexican and a white girl make a funny sight in Thailand. I didn't care about the looks. All I cared was that Amy and Chloe knew they were loved and worth much more than money. Sadly they wanted to head back to the bar to get some customers but we had impacted them. We planted seeds. We loved well.
Our last night Amy and Chloe got us gifts. They wanted us to remember them. They were sad we were leaving but glad we were friends. I've never been so humbled. We were interrupting their business each night we went in but they saw our love. They got something they needed from us- unconditional love. It was sad to leave but I look forward to a heavenly reunion.
Through loving these girls I rediscovered my value in God. I rediscovered my worth in God. As I walked past the bars one last time I walked confident. I walked strong. I walked courageous. I walked free. I walked full of love and light. I walked into my Father's arms trusting him to know what's next.
