Now let me ask you a question: Where do you feel like you need God least? Where are you most proficient, most sufficient? Maybe that is precisely where God wants you to trust Him to do something beyond your ability. It’s just when you think you have God all figured out that He pulls the coin out of the fish’s mouth. And it is God’s strange and mysterious ways that renew our awe, our trust, and our dependence.
This quote made its way to the desktop of my computer earlier this month. I know it sounds unbelievable but I don’t know where it came from, how it showed up, but I know that it was written for me. It met me in a season of life that I needed to see it, to see God in a different way, and to open my eyes to what He is doing inside of me. It has allowed me to see God in a way I never have before.
The Race has put me in many situations that made me uncomfortable, forced me to face my failures, and gave me the grace to grow in the places that I needed to do so. It is easy to come on the race and think that this will all be easy. Let me let you in on a secret: growth is uncomfortable. Pruning our lives to make us more like Jesus is a process that is often uncomfortable, frustrating, and all around nothing like most people make it out to be. It leaves me at a place where my prayers are often ones of desperation: if God doesn’t show up, I am up a creek, without a paddle, and probably have a hole in the bottom of my boat too.
God didn’t bring me on the Race to be the person who left America three months ago. And I won’t leave the Race the same person I am today, three months in. South America holds great memories for me; I will forever leave a part of my heart on this continent. But, I am expectant of what is to come in Southeast Asia and what person I am when we are changing continents again.
