We have spent the last month and a half living within view of the Andes mountains here in South America. Waking up every morning looking at the mountains refreshed my soul each morning and reminded me every day of the character of God.
I spent a lot of my life in the mountains. I think one of the main reasons that I still consider North Carolina home is because of the mountains that I spent my childhood looking at. I found myself in those mountains. When things go wrong in my world, I go back to the mountains that I call home. The mountains seem to know my name exactly what I seem to need at the exact moment I need to find it.
When we landed in Ecuador, I knew there would be a month that I would love because I saw those mountains. I didn’t know that the Lord would speak to me so clearly in those mountains. As time continues to pass, I find myself reminded. Reminded of what he so clearly said to me in those mountains.
I have spent a lot of my life with no self worth. I was never good enough at anything to make seemingly anyone proud. I could not make good enough grades, succeed at a sport, make close friends, or even have someone that I should be able to depend on. I learned early in life to depend on no one but myself, especially as I entered adulthood. I learned that most people are in a battle for themselves, and if it requires hurting you to get to where they want to, they probably will. Broken, hurt, and bruised is how I spend so many of my days.
I have struggled a lot with my self-esteem, the worth that I put on myself because of what other people think of me. I often took the fact that people didn’t like me or get along with me, or invite me someone so personally.
Without a doubt, The Lord has taught me so much about this over the course of the last month that one blog couldn’t contain all of those lessons.
But, I heard him speak clearly to me: “Kristy Danielle: I made those mountains just for you.”
I had a teammate of mine tell me at debrief that I live life with a child-like wonder. His words saying that you remain in awe of your God was such an encouragement to my heart.
The Word of God tells us to look among the nations. To wonder and be astounded. Hab 1:5
