I wake up and smell the aroma of your Greatness

my hair a mess

makeup smeared

but the worst of all is the condition of my heart

      Thoughts racing, asking for this asking for that.

 

Be still.

 

I remember your greatness

Thank you for all that you are

You are God.

I want to know your heart

Ask; and expect to receive

 

I’ll give you my heart

              if you give me yours

All day long.

   people here, things there

Is this it?

Is this some privilege ive earned?

Is this honestly what I get to spend the rest of my life doing, serving?

                            

                                                                    then we soar

               until I can climb no further

I climb

                                        I climb

                      I climb

   

your love is the pilot

higher than a kite

on your very best weed

 

           how can something so high

                            be so deep at the same time

 

[we see it all]

 

"what goes up

must eventually come down"

 

                                                                                                                                                i know

i know.

 

i get nervous

i dont want to come down

 

a time to be born, and a time to die
a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted
a time to kill, and a time to heal
a time to break down, and a time to build up
a time to weep, and a time to laugh
a time to mourn, and a time to dance
a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together
a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing
a time to seek, and a time to lose
a time to keep, and a time to cast away
a time to tear, and a time to sew
a time to keep silence, and a time to speak
a time to love, and a time to hate
a time for war, and a time for

 

 

coming down i closed my eyes

for too long

because i woke up

and didnt know where i was

                                     there is evil

                                         everywhere

 

                                                                                        its hidden .

I walk through the jungle

and there are

holes,   traps,   entangling vines,   and worst

                                                                     of all,

                  >> snakes

 

                                         Every ten feet

                                                                                                  i jump to the side to dodge a snake

 

i quickly look for branches to fight

         

                                                                                       it seems like the right thing to do

                                                                                                   &my only option .

 

I forget so readily

                                    that snakes hate light

                                                                                    it blinds their eyes

when I walk in the path of the light

a light {{so bright}}

it breaks from the canopy all the way down to my lowly path . . .

I carry confidence   .

idontseehowigot here

andidontseewherei'm going

                                  ive been battling for days

                                                                           every day

                                                              of this journey

But the scariest thing of all

is

                                              how forgetful I am

           -not just a problem of my mind

                      but its leaking into every cell of my being-

my arms start to flail

my feet stumble over roots

my vision blurs

my ears listen to what the snakes are whispering

                        Oh my God

           I'm scared if i keep relying on myself

                                                                    I will surely die

 

     Help me!

     Break me!

     Fix me!

          start with the most rotten of all

                                                                rip

                                                                         my

       heart

                         out

 

i want to run again

but in this condition.:.

my heart cant take running