Have you ever wanted to explain something to someone, but there were absolutely no words to describe it! Like the adrenaline you experienced during a wild adventure or the pain you felt when you suddenly lost someone special. How about the fiery passion that wells up inside when you’ve fallen in love? Don’t you wish there were words, even actions, that could correlate with the magnitude of your undying love?
So do I.
More than a few times, I’ve had a moment (typically during worship) where I get frustrated with my inability to describe the immensity of my love for The Father. I want so badly to explain to Him how much I adore Him and I want it to mean something. Of course, He already knows … but still, I desire to express it. I want to sacrifice, worship, cast my crown off before Him, and I don’t believe there is anything wrong with that. During staff worship last Monday, I entered a place with The Lord where I knew it was just Him and me. We were alone, I had Him all to myself, and I took advantage of that moment to sing my love song to Him.
I sang to Him. I danced before Him. I bowed, adoringly, before His throne. And as I laid my crown at His feet, He bent down, picked it up, and placed it back on my head. Like the twenty-four elders in Revelation, I repeatedly cast my crown before His throne. Each time, he responded by smiling as He gently placed it back on my head. The tossing of my crown became more and more fierce …
“I’m not worthy of this crown!”
“I sacrifice it all for You!”
“I NEED You to know that my love for You is real!!”
“Please … Just take it”
I hurl my crown off, and one last time it lands before His feet. Still, with the most loving and gentle touch, He takes the crown and puts it to rest on my head. This time, instead of just smiling He decides to speak:
My child, don’t you realize it yet? THE FEELING IS MUTUAL.
I am undone.
The Lord restores our soul, rewards our sacrifices, and returns our crowns to the place where He always meant for it to sit. We are princes and princesses whom The Father desires to lavish His love upon. As we receive the true love of our Lord and King, we can’t help but pour it back out. We are inclined to lavish it back on him, as well as on others, because that’s what love does. At the same time, we were created with a desire to be loved, cherished, and accepted. As much as we want Him to know how real our love is, He wants the same for us. So when we pour our hearts out and sing crazy love songs in an attempt to convey what words can never express, He fills the void and meets our need for love and admiration by showing us that the feeling we have isn’t one sided – it’s mutual.
“Twenty-four thrones, with twenty-four elders seated upon them, surrounded the throne. The elders were dressed in white clothing and had gold crowns on their heads. Whenever the living creatures give glory, honor, and thanks to the one seated on the throne, who lives forever and always, the twenty-four elders fall before the one seated on the throne. They worship the one who lives forever and always. They throw down their crowns before the throne …”
Revelation 4:4, 9-10 CEB
