Fear. It’s crippling. It can keep us from being happy even when happiness is knocking at our front door. It keeps us up at night. It’s a terrifying feeling that often disguises itself as safety, so we often don’t realize that many of our actions, or lack thereof, are motivated by it. I hate being fearful. Why am I saying this? Because I’m admitting that fear has kept me from moving forward, challenging myself, and walking through some of the doors that God has opened for me. My greatest fear is failing and I’ve done as much as I could to protect myself from that.
But not anymore.
I’m excited (and a little terrified) to share with you about my upcoming transition, a new door that I’ve decided to walk through. Starting in March, I will be joining Adventures In Missions staff as the Director of The Fellowship!! The Fellowship is a 6 month program that I am currently a participant in; however, in January I will begin transitioning and training to take on this new role full time.
My responsibilities as Fellowship Director would be to mentor upcoming Fellows in discovering their calling and equipping them to be successful while aligning their spiritual growth with their professional development. I’d also be responsible for further developing The Fellowship into a sustainable and marketable program for Adventures as well as support raising 50% of my salary. This position will be a greater challenge for me than positions that I’ve held in the past for various reasons, but it will also greatly develop me as a leader and position me to do more of the things that I feel the Lord calling me to do. Being a part of developing something new and playing an instrumental role in the spiritual growth & professional development of a group of people will help me grow in areas of innovation, networking, mentoring, and relationship building; all things that I will need in the future.
I am honored to have been recommended by the President of Adventures, the COO, and current Fellowship Director for this position. To have the support of such wonderful & inspirational people played a huge part in my decision to accept it. The exciting part is that they believe that I will do great at it, and their belief has rubbed off on me! However, there is another factor that I can’t quite shake … I have never done anything like this before. And THAT’S the terrifying part!!
Fear of failing has haunted me for quite some time and failing at this could mean failing others. I’m also afraid of what success in the role could lead to. I’m afraid of failing God and becoming proud or getting so caught up in the job that I lose focus on Him. I’m afraid of being found out and becoming a little more human to a lots more people. Even though I am admittedly afraid, I understand that the steps I am going through are necessary and a part of my growth. As I prayed and revealed my fears before the Lord, He brought me to one simple scripture.
“To the one who is able to protect you from falling, and to present you blameless and rejoicing before his glorious presence” – Jude 1:24
I don’t have to be afraid of anything. My Father will protect me and present me blameless where it counts, before HIS glorious presence. God is opening doors for me so that I can have a greater platform to exalt Him and I am going to walk right through them, shedding a small layer of fear with each step. As long as God is with me, I don’t need to be afraid of opened doors.
I’M MOVING!!
In addition to transitioning into a new role at Adventures, I’m also transitioning away from this blog. For almost 2 years, most of what I did or learned was very closely related to The World Race. That is no longer the case. Rather than continuing to use my World Race blog for irrelevant content or keeping the relevant content to myself & my journal, I decided to create a new blog site! I will no longer be using this site for blogging, except for the occasional support raising update (because I definitely am STILL SUPPORT RAISING). For all the other stuff, the really good stuff, subscribe to my new blog: Driving Out Fear
I’ve already gotten started with a few posts that I hope will leave you inspired.
THANKS!
