I begin my World Race in 5 months. When it comes to my preparation, God has definitely been paving the way and helping me get everything in line. It's all happening so quickly, a little too quickly.
I will be moving out of my house in a month so that my renters can move in. I prayed to have renters in my home before June so that I could save money, and (surprise, surprise) He answered my prayers. Before I know it, I will be visiting my parents, siblings, and friends back home in Texas. I will be saying goodbye's and preparing to not see them for at least a year. Shortly after that, I'll be attending Training Camp for the World Race where I'll meet most of my team for the first time. Once I return from Training Camp, I'll have about a month left in Atlanta … and then it begins.
When I first applied for the World Race, the only thing that I felt was excitement. Now, as everything seems a little more real, I've been experiencing about 30 different emotions a day.
- Fear
- Anxiety
- Homesickness
- Unprepared
- More Fear
- Sad
- Nervous
- Lonely
- Overwhelmed
God has been doing EXTRAORDINARY things in my life as I prepare for this trip, so I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that He is in this. He has ordained this. He is for me. And He has something greater for me on the other side of this.That still excites me, but if I'm honest (which I am becoming much better at these days), I still experience fear and am haunted by the 'What Ifs'?
Thankfully, I have a God who knows exactly how to calm and comfort me when my feelings have overwhelmed me. This morning I watched a video of a team that is currently in Mozambique (I have included the video below). It literally melted my heart. It made me smile, gave me encouragement, and reminded me of why I'm doing this. I shouldn't care about material things, because I'll probably end up leaving or losing most of what I carry with me. I shouldn't be overwhelmed with sadness regarding leaving my family and friends for a year. They will be alright without me! I shouldn't be haunted by the "What If's" because I already know that victory is waiting for me at the end. But this video reminded me that LOVE is the reason why I'm doing this. It's a love for a nation … a sex slave … an orphan … a lost soul … something and someone who I haven't even met, yet they are somewhere waiting for me just like I am waiting for them. I watched this video and was immediately consumed with love and joy. Just like the scripture says, this kind of love is fearless and it removed every ounce of fear that previously existed. (1 John 4:18)
So, uhhhhhh …. Why is this blog titled C.R.E.A.M?? Because I am not motivated by fear and I'm not going to let it rule me. I am motivated by love! Simply put … Compassion Rules Everything Around Me 
I hope you enjoy the video below as much as I did!
Peace!
