This month my team was placed in the driest place on earth, The Atacama Desert.
Cool, we have the desert to explore, but I asked God why has He placed us, specifically my team in the desert this month. He reminded me of all those He had taken into the desert, including His Son.
He does that to prepare His heroes. But is almost one of the most dangerous places to be in. It’s where Satan comes in to tempt you more so, because now you have nothing. The desert can offer you nothing.
During my team time I did communion, and during it my team leader had a vision of me.
Me in the desert, being circled by Satan trying to suffocate the life out of me. Then he choked me and threw me to the ground, laying lifeless. Until Jesus came to my side. I grabbed water to quench my thirst, but that wasn’t helping. He reached out His word for me to bring back life.
I prayed into this vision. I read His word every day, and I prayed…what could the enemy possibly be trying to suffocate me from?
And then I remembered.
Second month of the race, a man I deeply cared and imagined a future with, had told me he was having a child….in four days.
My world crushed. I lay there in Africa for two weeks sick with a high fever and puking.
But that has been a while ago now. I have forgiven him and extended grace.
But that scab never seems to heal. I let the enemy keep picking on it, only leaving a deeper scar behind.
He whispers lies into me of how I’m not good enough, only enough to be used for someone’s emotional pleasure. He tries to strip my confidence in who I am and to whom I belong to. He uses that to kill me spiritually, because he knows that is a tender part of my heart.
He grabs my peace and joy. The fruits of the spirit the Lord had blessed me with.
But here I am this month in the desert. Letting go of what is robbing my peace and joy. Guarding my scab from being opened again. That vision was a warning for me. To identify the issues that still lay in my heart, and dig the root out.
His word is where my life comes from, not the lies that keep circling around me.
I AM THE DAUGHTER OF A KING WHO IS NOT MOVED BY THE WORLD. FOR MY GOD IS WITH ME & GOES BEFORE ME. I DO NOT FEAR BECAUSE I AM HIS.
