So a couple of weeks ago, we had the opportunity to go into a local hospital here in Busia, Kenya and pray for the sick. God broke my heart. We went around praying for patients. The more patients we met the more I begged God to stretch out his healing hand. It was difficult to see these people laying in these beds and to not see one that was healed. “Lord, what about the baby with burns all over his body, or this man that lay by his wife that is HIV positive?” Why when we prayed for their sickness to be gone “In Jesus’ name” did God not answer our prayers? I found myself getting frustrated. Did we not have enough faith? More than anything I wanted these people to know Jesus. I thought, “Lord if you heal them, they will believe. Surely they will rejoice and praise your name!” I know that I serve a Great and Powerful God. I have read many stories in the Bible of how Jesus healed many. He raised Lazarus, healed the blind man, and the leper. What I struggle with, is the fact that I don’t know why He chooses to allow certain things, like all the sick that lay in their hospital beds still struck with disease.
When we read the book of Job, we know the background to why God allowed Job to go through what he did, but I am sure Job didn’t know the purpose when he was in the midst of his pain and suffering. Job had to choose to trust in the unfailing love of His Heavenly Father. 
When Jesus was in the Garden of Gethsemane, he prayed, “My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me, Yet not as I will, but as you will (Matt 26:39).” Jesus prayed this three times. God didn’t answer him as he willed, but God had a purpose behind it all…that Christ would die for our sins. Where would we be if he chose to “take the cup” from Jesus? His ways are higher…
