I want to again apologize for not writing a blog sooner. The
truth was I didn’t know what to say to all of of you that faithfully support me
financially or in prayer. I didn’t know what to say because my spirits were
pretty low here in Tanzania and I had nothing really encouraging to say.
I gave a sermon to a small church here on Sunday and God was
faithful and somehow refreshed me through my obedience. Let me explain….
We have been blessed beyond measure here. A beautiful home was
given to us to stay in. We have three amazing african women cooking for 13 of
us everyday. The Pastor we are working with has taken such great care of us.
Although God has blessed us with all this, my JOY had been all dried up. I was
tired and weary, I had allowed myself to be frustrated by the littlest things,
I got sick, and this past Saturday was my Grandpa’s memorial service and I was
longing to be home with my family.
In the past, I had experienced the Joy of the Lord and felt like
I could not be shaken. This month, I was tested. I was given time to seek God
more, but I failed the test and I allowed other things to distract me. I didn’t
realized these moments were actually God’s invitation to a greater power and
intimacy. I was relying on the things He taught and showed me before instead of
seeking what else He had for me. I was being content with the place I was at with the Lord and not
pressing into a deeper relationship. The Truth was that I need HIM daily. I
took my focus off of Him and allowed my circumstances to discourage me.
In Psalm 16:11 it says, “You make known to me the path of life;
you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your
right hand.”
