So I have put up strong boundaries in my life when it comes to love. Loving for me comes very easy but it is a slippery slope when you get to the edge. Because of past mistakes when I slipped I have set up STRONG boundaries when it comes to loving people.
At the end of Japan, God walked me through a season of starting to take down those walls. I didn’t know how scary this process would be because I haven’t let myself love deeply for at least a couple years. But my heart broke.
As the squad was heading our separate ways from the airport my heart was super heavy. I started to cry because my heart was truly going to miss my squadmates. Someone reminded me as tears were streaming down my face, “you know when it is a hard goodbye you aren’t holding anything back in loving.” It was such a good thought.
I have never been one who has a hard time saying goodbye (unless your my mom). So these new deep emotions were a new experience for me.
The Lord whispered to my spirit as we headed to the bus that in my hindering my depth of love with others I have ultimately hindered my depth of love with him. He let me have these boundaries for a season for my protection. But now it is time to break the boundaries and fully dive into the depths of both love of/from God as well as people.
God created me as a very powerful person and a deep lover. I am claiming to no longer walk out in fear of depth of love and truly experience unhindered reckless abandoned LOVE!
I can’t wait to see all that God has in store for me in Albania.
